JOKE. lol it doesnt feel like christmas at all honestly. ive been going through soooooo much.
me and kerry have REALLY been through it these past couple of days. seriously.. like, ugh. its been stressing me out. but we'll see. im bout to go to the movies tonight with him. i love him nonetheless.. and he's what i want. it's what my heart says i want and im gonna listen (sigh) anywho..
i got him a christmas/slash birthday present. tomorrows his birthday. yeeeee.. i cant tell you what it is though, even though he neveerrr reads you. haha
i got my mama, my sister, donald, and kerry something. thats all i needed. i aint had alot of money. like, my family has really been struggling financially. and i mean, i knw we're better off than most. we were still fortunate enough to get christmas presents. we still eat every day and night. we still have clothes, we still have a house. still got cars and phones. so we're blessed honestly.
but its just been a hassle ya knw ? but we're making it. im still as grateful as i can ever be and thts all i need anyway.
but it really does NOT feel like christmas. this year my holiday spirit is like.. almost nonexistent. lol but i shouldnt be tht way.. whatever. im ready for new years really.. im ready like.. i just KNOW things will be better. 2009 was extremely and outrageously eventful, but i knw 2010 is gonna be fantastic. it has to be. i have faith. and faith is a strong thing, i must say..
but uhh.. yah. i have yet to go to the club. cuz you knw im 18 now.. lmao. i can go to the club now without sneaking or anything haha.. but i have yet to go. i got some new pumps today. 25 dollassss.. aint tht a deal ? some baadddd purple pumps.. im going somewhere hell.. lol
but today is my aunts birthday. we're over here eating and celebrating and stuff..
but im logging off now. i'll write later.
byeeeee <3
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
i have soooo much to tell you...
this week has been soooo hectic. this past weekend was sooo fun. lol i styed up soo late studying for my history final and made a 71. wtf ? lol but i passed the class with a C. so im gooodddd.
i didnt study as much for my political science test. ohhh ! lemme tell you, my final was at 2 yesterday. i set my alarm for 11:45. when tht went off i turned it off and went bck to sleep. ugghh ! i woke up exactly at 2 and i was runnin alll over the place. i was late. iwas the last person in the class and i made a 68 on it. ugh. i passed tht class with a C too. so im gooddd. lol
i just beastd this biology final. it was exactly like the study guide tht she gave us and i knw i passed it with flying colors. i always wondered what ppl meant by "flying colors" lol but whatever. i have one more final tomorrow and then im headed bck to MY CITY. oh how i love houston. i dnt thin you understand just how much. it is waaaayyy better than huntsville. and now im 18 ! lol so i can get into the clubs and stuff you knw ! lol wheewwwww.
they got me takin a final tomorrow at 8 PM at NIGHT wtf ? isnt tht retarded ? its my stupid math final. ima hurry up and finish it so i can be up outta here !
my bff is going to new york. =( but i hope he has fun and he better bring me something bck. lol
i miss kerry and i cant wait to see him. i miss my dog. lol
im so ready to go home tht i dnt even feel like typing anything else. so before i get TOO repetetive on this blog, ima just go. lol
write in you later 1
byeeeee
rae <3
i didnt study as much for my political science test. ohhh ! lemme tell you, my final was at 2 yesterday. i set my alarm for 11:45. when tht went off i turned it off and went bck to sleep. ugghh ! i woke up exactly at 2 and i was runnin alll over the place. i was late. iwas the last person in the class and i made a 68 on it. ugh. i passed tht class with a C too. so im gooddd. lol
i just beastd this biology final. it was exactly like the study guide tht she gave us and i knw i passed it with flying colors. i always wondered what ppl meant by "flying colors" lol but whatever. i have one more final tomorrow and then im headed bck to MY CITY. oh how i love houston. i dnt thin you understand just how much. it is waaaayyy better than huntsville. and now im 18 ! lol so i can get into the clubs and stuff you knw ! lol wheewwwww.
they got me takin a final tomorrow at 8 PM at NIGHT wtf ? isnt tht retarded ? its my stupid math final. ima hurry up and finish it so i can be up outta here !
my bff is going to new york. =( but i hope he has fun and he better bring me something bck. lol
i miss kerry and i cant wait to see him. i miss my dog. lol
im so ready to go home tht i dnt even feel like typing anything else. so before i get TOO repetetive on this blog, ima just go. lol
write in you later 1
byeeeee
rae <3
Monday, December 7, 2009
eh..
the day started off unpleasantly <---is tht a word ? lol anyway, idk why im so stressed. pause..
i do knw why im so stressed. and its my own fault. and sometimes, honestly i wish i could be a different person. then i look at all the things i have tht other ppl dnt, and im happy with who i am. the things i wanna change are the things tht can be changed if i stay consistent. and tht whole consistency thing, as far as academics and hell every aspect in life has been easy for me. but college has given tht a run for its money. and it sucks..
im gonna lock myself in a room with nothing but books and paper and a bit of food. ill have no choice to study and stay focused on my work. it wont even be a comfortable room so tht i wont f all asleep. sounds like a plan ? lol i just woke up with teary eyes. thinking of myself as a failure. knwing tht i can do better but taking alternative steps to stray me away from tht "better" and im upset with myself honestly.. (excuse any typos)
im upset tht i am not doing what i could have been doing. and it sucks, i ve even let this stress thin my faith. and sometimes my faith is all i have, and when i lose tht, i'll be stuck. and no one likes to be stuck. smh.. im a mess.
im about to go to my room and say a meeaaannn prayer. god knws my heart, but i dnt. and thts my problem. i wont give my issues to him. and th more i try to let him handle it, the more i worry. and he cant deal with it if im in the way. so from now on, i need to be in the school books AND the bible. my faith is not as strong as it used to and should be. and thts obviously taking a toll on me man.. it sucks.
i asked my bestfriendforever to give me words of advice, as i always do in times of need, and he did just tht. and it seems as if i dnt even have to tell him the problem, but he knws exactly what to say. and im crying as i type because, to have someone complete you like tht.. i digress,
my weekend didnt go as planned. good news: it snowed, bad news: it snowed. lol no one came up to huntsville but tyron. and thts ok. i was upset at first, but me and tyron strengthened our bond. and tht was amazing in itself. i love tht man honestly. and i'd be quite lost without him.
i went to the movies and saw new moon. it probably woulda been better if i woulda saw the first one first. lol but it was alright. interesting. the main men in the movie were sexy, whew ! (wipes forehead) <-- lol but yeah, it was cool..
i got high. lol and i knw tht sounds bad but, it tkes me to another level of thinking. im already at another state of mind than others, the weed tkes me to another world. and i like tht. im not justifying it. but im not knocking it.
im ready to tke finals, PASS them, and go home. i needa break. im 18 now lol and although it hasnt happened yet, things are about to change. or maybe they already are happening and i havent noticed them yet. nonetheless, 18 is a big year. and things will happen tht i may or may not be ready for.. but here they come. lol
i dnt have my music (darnit) and i was really upset too.. but its fine. i still had alot of this shit on my mind, and you're the only one who can tke it all in without being overwhelmed. lol but im dont for now.
im going to my room to eat and sleep. ima study for this math test i have and then im sleeping until 4.
i'll write later. byeee
rae <3
i do knw why im so stressed. and its my own fault. and sometimes, honestly i wish i could be a different person. then i look at all the things i have tht other ppl dnt, and im happy with who i am. the things i wanna change are the things tht can be changed if i stay consistent. and tht whole consistency thing, as far as academics and hell every aspect in life has been easy for me. but college has given tht a run for its money. and it sucks..
im gonna lock myself in a room with nothing but books and paper and a bit of food. ill have no choice to study and stay focused on my work. it wont even be a comfortable room so tht i wont f all asleep. sounds like a plan ? lol i just woke up with teary eyes. thinking of myself as a failure. knwing tht i can do better but taking alternative steps to stray me away from tht "better" and im upset with myself honestly.. (excuse any typos)
im upset tht i am not doing what i could have been doing. and it sucks, i ve even let this stress thin my faith. and sometimes my faith is all i have, and when i lose tht, i'll be stuck. and no one likes to be stuck. smh.. im a mess.
im about to go to my room and say a meeaaannn prayer. god knws my heart, but i dnt. and thts my problem. i wont give my issues to him. and th more i try to let him handle it, the more i worry. and he cant deal with it if im in the way. so from now on, i need to be in the school books AND the bible. my faith is not as strong as it used to and should be. and thts obviously taking a toll on me man.. it sucks.
i asked my bestfriendforever to give me words of advice, as i always do in times of need, and he did just tht. and it seems as if i dnt even have to tell him the problem, but he knws exactly what to say. and im crying as i type because, to have someone complete you like tht.. i digress,
my weekend didnt go as planned. good news: it snowed, bad news: it snowed. lol no one came up to huntsville but tyron. and thts ok. i was upset at first, but me and tyron strengthened our bond. and tht was amazing in itself. i love tht man honestly. and i'd be quite lost without him.
i went to the movies and saw new moon. it probably woulda been better if i woulda saw the first one first. lol but it was alright. interesting. the main men in the movie were sexy, whew ! (wipes forehead) <-- lol but yeah, it was cool..
i got high. lol and i knw tht sounds bad but, it tkes me to another level of thinking. im already at another state of mind than others, the weed tkes me to another world. and i like tht. im not justifying it. but im not knocking it.
im ready to tke finals, PASS them, and go home. i needa break. im 18 now lol and although it hasnt happened yet, things are about to change. or maybe they already are happening and i havent noticed them yet. nonetheless, 18 is a big year. and things will happen tht i may or may not be ready for.. but here they come. lol
i dnt have my music (darnit) and i was really upset too.. but its fine. i still had alot of this shit on my mind, and you're the only one who can tke it all in without being overwhelmed. lol but im dont for now.
im going to my room to eat and sleep. ima study for this math test i have and then im sleeping until 4.
i'll write later. byeee
rae <3
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
World Aids Day
we arent celebrating AIDS. we're acknowledging those who have it and the ways to prevent it. its a serious matter and we should be a bit more aware..
anywho..i got my music today !!!! sooo, my thanksgiving break was eventful (but not really) lol honestly, i dnt feel like writing about tht right now. ill tell you about tht later. good news!
MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW !!!!!!! oohh sheeiitttt. finally reaching my 18th year. the last one. lol but yeah, jess and chell are throwing me a prty at their apt and everyone is coming. bff, ashley, chassidy, monica, tyler, ty'ron, sister, idk who else. lol but its finna be a shitload of fun. streetz cant come =( but its ok. she'll be there in spirit..
but yeah.. cant wait ! im so excited tht i cant sit here and type as much as i usually do. lol i'll write later !
byyeeee
rae<3
anywho..i got my music today !!!! sooo, my thanksgiving break was eventful (but not really) lol honestly, i dnt feel like writing about tht right now. ill tell you about tht later. good news!
MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW !!!!!!! oohh sheeiitttt. finally reaching my 18th year. the last one. lol but yeah, jess and chell are throwing me a prty at their apt and everyone is coming. bff, ashley, chassidy, monica, tyler, ty'ron, sister, idk who else. lol but its finna be a shitload of fun. streetz cant come =( but its ok. she'll be there in spirit..
but yeah.. cant wait ! im so excited tht i cant sit here and type as much as i usually do. lol i'll write later !
byyeeee
rae<3
Monday, November 23, 2009
sooooo
it is monday. but im sure you knw tht eh ? lol i am sooooooo ready to go home. this is ridiculous. my late ass ratchet ass class got out right at 5 just like i predicted. and i am still in janky ole huntsville waiting on someone to come scoop me so tht i can be bck where my heart is. thts right. HOUSTON. tht is my home. its where i aspire to be every moment. well not every moment. sometimes i aspire to be in new york or hawaii or somewhere. lol but nonetheless, those places do NOT possess my heart. Houston does. and so does my bff and my mama..lol
i packed aaaallll my stuff. just to sit here and do nothing but wait. here's the plan. im gonna be here until 7 or 8 waiting on my uncle to come get me. then ill go to his house. then i will wait on my mother to come get me which will probably take FOREVEEEERRRRRR. ugh. i mean, i jsut wanna be home. i miss my dog. i miss my mama. i miss my sister. i miss my boyfriend. and i miss joseph of course although i just saw his ass saturday and sunday. but i always be missing him. and not to mention that i cannot WAIT until erian gets home. seriously, id spend my entire life with erian if i had to. which, when i grow up i probably will. lmao. she wants me to pick her ass up from the airport but uhhhhh...thts looking like a no. lol (i still love you tho STREETZ !) anywho..
i dnt even have my music right now, this outside noise is killing my damn ears. usually when i come to this computer lab i tke myself to another place. i put my music in and think totally different thoughts and i dnt even see these ppl. but now ? they are all over the damn place. cant get rid of em without my music. i just wrote a paper and typed it not too long ago. i think im gonna get an A, i mean, im one hell of a writer. im not perfect, but im not bad either. obviously. it would be retarded for someone to love writing and then suck at it right? right..
it smells like a strawberry milkshake in here. it kinda makes me wnt one. mmmmm.
everyone is gone. jvonne darian jessica and rachelle. GONE. just left me here alone. by myself. even my damn roommate is gone. wtf.
things have been a bit stressful, i must say. mommy got laid off. tuition cant be paid for. i may not be able to even come bck to huntsville next semester the way things are looking. and it'd be awesome to stay in houston, but i also wanna go to college. lol sooo yeah, how devastating..
my birthday is in 9 days ! aaaaaahhhhhhh ! lol i am excited. ive always been the baby. and i still am. joseph called me a child today. smh. what an asshole. im grown, well almost. lol but yeah...jess and rachelle are throwing me a party at their apt. its gonna be sooo much fun. i cant wait.
but uhh, im gonna gon 'head and make tht looonnng lonely wlk bck to my dorm room to sit there and wait. and wait. and wait. lol
if i had a computer i would write in you some more but i dnt. -__- =/
i'll write later byyeeeee (excuse any typos lol)
raeeee <3
i packed aaaallll my stuff. just to sit here and do nothing but wait. here's the plan. im gonna be here until 7 or 8 waiting on my uncle to come get me. then ill go to his house. then i will wait on my mother to come get me which will probably take FOREVEEEERRRRRR. ugh. i mean, i jsut wanna be home. i miss my dog. i miss my mama. i miss my sister. i miss my boyfriend. and i miss joseph of course although i just saw his ass saturday and sunday. but i always be missing him. and not to mention that i cannot WAIT until erian gets home. seriously, id spend my entire life with erian if i had to. which, when i grow up i probably will. lmao. she wants me to pick her ass up from the airport but uhhhhh...thts looking like a no. lol (i still love you tho STREETZ !) anywho..
i dnt even have my music right now, this outside noise is killing my damn ears. usually when i come to this computer lab i tke myself to another place. i put my music in and think totally different thoughts and i dnt even see these ppl. but now ? they are all over the damn place. cant get rid of em without my music. i just wrote a paper and typed it not too long ago. i think im gonna get an A, i mean, im one hell of a writer. im not perfect, but im not bad either. obviously. it would be retarded for someone to love writing and then suck at it right? right..
it smells like a strawberry milkshake in here. it kinda makes me wnt one. mmmmm.
everyone is gone. jvonne darian jessica and rachelle. GONE. just left me here alone. by myself. even my damn roommate is gone. wtf.
things have been a bit stressful, i must say. mommy got laid off. tuition cant be paid for. i may not be able to even come bck to huntsville next semester the way things are looking. and it'd be awesome to stay in houston, but i also wanna go to college. lol sooo yeah, how devastating..
my birthday is in 9 days ! aaaaaahhhhhhh ! lol i am excited. ive always been the baby. and i still am. joseph called me a child today. smh. what an asshole. im grown, well almost. lol but yeah...jess and rachelle are throwing me a party at their apt. its gonna be sooo much fun. i cant wait.
but uhh, im gonna gon 'head and make tht looonnng lonely wlk bck to my dorm room to sit there and wait. and wait. and wait. lol
if i had a computer i would write in you some more but i dnt. -__- =/
i'll write later byyeeeee (excuse any typos lol)
raeeee <3
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
StreetFAME.
i love anthony jamal scott sooooooo much. lol seriously though..
everyone wnts to be a rapper nowadays. everyone thinks its so easy. but anthony ? he been doing this for a while. and he is AMAZING. he's talented. like, when i listen to his stuff i think, what kind of distorted mind (lol) can think up lyrics like this ? like, he says stuff to make you think. ALL of his mixtapes are ALBUM material. lol when he makes it ima be his biggest fan. for real..he showed his ass on this mixtape. i love tht boy. it makes me wanna cry with how much talent he has..to be so young, ppl this age be worried about things tht are irrelevant and tht arent productive. but im proud of anthony. and then my bff wanna be a singer. lol lawwwdd hammercy..
but uhh...somethings been going on lately, where i've had to reevaluate my friendships. i always say tht everyone else uses the word "friend" too loosely because everyone isnt your friend. but i use "best friend" too loosely. i try to make everyone my best friend when evereyone isnt. thts just how it is..college will show you tht. LOUD AND CLEAR.
anywho..i didnt go to my 10:00 class because i woke up late. i aint really trippin t hough. i got all the notes. hopefully they didnt do anything diff. from the norm. but uh..me and kerry are awesome. i miss him.
my birthday is approximately 21 days away. yaaayyyyy then i'll be 18. FINALLY ! ugh. it tkes too long for me to get on everyone else's level. lol
but yeahh..im gonna go to my 11:00 class now. probably get me something to eat. i'll write in you later.
byyeeeeee
rae<3
everyone wnts to be a rapper nowadays. everyone thinks its so easy. but anthony ? he been doing this for a while. and he is AMAZING. he's talented. like, when i listen to his stuff i think, what kind of distorted mind (lol) can think up lyrics like this ? like, he says stuff to make you think. ALL of his mixtapes are ALBUM material. lol when he makes it ima be his biggest fan. for real..he showed his ass on this mixtape. i love tht boy. it makes me wanna cry with how much talent he has..to be so young, ppl this age be worried about things tht are irrelevant and tht arent productive. but im proud of anthony. and then my bff wanna be a singer. lol lawwwdd hammercy..
but uhh...somethings been going on lately, where i've had to reevaluate my friendships. i always say tht everyone else uses the word "friend" too loosely because everyone isnt your friend. but i use "best friend" too loosely. i try to make everyone my best friend when evereyone isnt. thts just how it is..college will show you tht. LOUD AND CLEAR.
anywho..i didnt go to my 10:00 class because i woke up late. i aint really trippin t hough. i got all the notes. hopefully they didnt do anything diff. from the norm. but uh..me and kerry are awesome. i miss him.
my birthday is approximately 21 days away. yaaayyyyy then i'll be 18. FINALLY ! ugh. it tkes too long for me to get on everyone else's level. lol
but yeahh..im gonna go to my 11:00 class now. probably get me something to eat. i'll write in you later.
byyeeeeee
rae<3
Thursday, November 5, 2009
yuuuupppp.
sooo, i am infatuated with trey songz. lol i saw his new video "invented sex" goodness gracious.
im starting to believe tht he did invent it. hahahaha but i love him. like, ugghhhh. he is so damn gorgeous. lol
i woke up feeling good. i look good. im just in a pleasant mood. last night i sang "speechless" by beyonce and i must say tht i KILLED it. i went to the avenue L. its a little coffee shop where they had poets lounge at. it was a nice setting. really smooth and peaceful. i had fun. i was sooooooo nervous, but im ALWAYS nervous. btu i did well. ialways pull thru. my friends darian and jvonne were with me so...they were my motivation so to speak..
umm...yeah. lol im having a good day. i love my best friend, but im sure you guys already knew tht. lol
i have nothing else to write. hahaha but i did go to sleep and i woke up listening to nothing but freaky trey songz' music. lol what can i say ? hahaha
byeee
rae <3
im starting to believe tht he did invent it. hahahaha but i love him. like, ugghhhh. he is so damn gorgeous. lol
i woke up feeling good. i look good. im just in a pleasant mood. last night i sang "speechless" by beyonce and i must say tht i KILLED it. i went to the avenue L. its a little coffee shop where they had poets lounge at. it was a nice setting. really smooth and peaceful. i had fun. i was sooooooo nervous, but im ALWAYS nervous. btu i did well. ialways pull thru. my friends darian and jvonne were with me so...they were my motivation so to speak..
umm...yeah. lol im having a good day. i love my best friend, but im sure you guys already knew tht. lol
i have nothing else to write. hahaha but i did go to sleep and i woke up listening to nothing but freaky trey songz' music. lol what can i say ? hahaha
byeee
rae <3
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
NO CEILINGS
is hitting haarrrdddd right now. lol i love this damn mixtape.
soooo, im going to houston friday to see my husband. =) drake, tht is. @ club HUSH. did i tell you tht already ? oh well if i did. lol im sooo excited. wooooooohoooo! lol
uhh, i hate my wednesdays. i have a 10, 11, 2, and 430 class today. ugh ! but whatever its only for one day.
me and my brother had the realest convo last night. well, not the realest. we aint have enough time to make it the realest lol but it was TRUE. we tlkd about alot of things tht most ppl wouldnt really understand. but thts okay. =) lol and my bff told me he loved me, which i mean, is nothing different but..thts my bff. and every time he says it warms my heart. he is my heart hell. lol
anyways..im in a good mood today. lol the day is gorgeous. the weather is nice. i look cute. =) i think its gonna be an awesome day. i think ima spend the night at jessica and rachelles house tonight. i love them. (side note: my stomach hurts. cramps. period lol)
im really hungry. i gotta go and "maximize my time" <----in the words of erian hahaha. i gotta make the most of my hour and a half before my boring ass 2:00 class. ugh
byeeee
rae <3
soooo, im going to houston friday to see my husband. =) drake, tht is. @ club HUSH. did i tell you tht already ? oh well if i did. lol im sooo excited. wooooooohoooo! lol
uhh, i hate my wednesdays. i have a 10, 11, 2, and 430 class today. ugh ! but whatever its only for one day.
me and my brother had the realest convo last night. well, not the realest. we aint have enough time to make it the realest lol but it was TRUE. we tlkd about alot of things tht most ppl wouldnt really understand. but thts okay. =) lol and my bff told me he loved me, which i mean, is nothing different but..thts my bff. and every time he says it warms my heart. he is my heart hell. lol
anyways..im in a good mood today. lol the day is gorgeous. the weather is nice. i look cute. =) i think its gonna be an awesome day. i think ima spend the night at jessica and rachelles house tonight. i love them. (side note: my stomach hurts. cramps. period lol)
im really hungry. i gotta go and "maximize my time" <----in the words of erian hahaha. i gotta make the most of my hour and a half before my boring ass 2:00 class. ugh
byeeee
rae <3
Monday, November 2, 2009
i just noticed that..
my birthday is in exactly a month ! i am soooo excited ! i can finally be 18. lol man, yall dnt knw how long ive been waiting on my birthday to come. im always the baby in EVERYTHING ! ugh ! im probably the only 17 yr old college freshman at my school ! lol (exaggeration) but yeah, i dnt even knw what i wanna do. i just wanna have fun. LOTS of fun ! i wanna do the MOST for my birthday. seriously like, im so excited. lol ima be able to do sooo much. first off, ima be able to get in the club. lol ive never been..dnt i sound like such a baby ? ugh. lol
anyways..i had soomuch fun this past weekend. i went home of course. i went shopping with kerry. went to the movies and saw tht michael jackson movie with my mommy. tht movie was quite amazing. it was nice to see michael jackson in a different light ya knw ? then saturday i went to my little sisters games, she did good. im so proud of her. she's a cheerleader. she looked so cute ! i was out ther from 830 to 1230. whew ! lol then i went to lamars homecoming. it was so nice to see all of them ! all my babies and ms.blackmon, my favoritesttttt teacher EVER ! lol ilove her! we were doing all the cheers and stuff. it was fun. i had fun. then we went to the galleria. i havent been to the galleria in FOREVER ! lol i had tht good ole pizza, saw tyron, my favorite brother and the love of my freaking life, and ashlyn and d'ann. i missed them. and of course i saw kerry. =) hehe joe went to lamar university so i didnt see him. WOMP ! lol but yeah i had fun.
church was amazing as always. learned alot. like i always do.
so me and twin rode bck to sam with my friend darian and he got a flat tire. and we helped him change it ! lol tyron said thts wifey material. hahahaha i agree..
anywho, i just found out tht i have a paper to do ugh ! and a presentation to do tomorrow, but im not rally too worried about tht. i got tht ! =)
uhh, im going to see drake this friday with kerry @ club HUSH. im sooo excited ! i love drake. hehehe
now i feel like im writing too much lol, i think im excited today. but umm, im going to lunch with jessica and ill write in you later.
byeeee
rae <3
anyways..i had soomuch fun this past weekend. i went home of course. i went shopping with kerry. went to the movies and saw tht michael jackson movie with my mommy. tht movie was quite amazing. it was nice to see michael jackson in a different light ya knw ? then saturday i went to my little sisters games, she did good. im so proud of her. she's a cheerleader. she looked so cute ! i was out ther from 830 to 1230. whew ! lol then i went to lamars homecoming. it was so nice to see all of them ! all my babies and ms.blackmon, my favoritesttttt teacher EVER ! lol ilove her! we were doing all the cheers and stuff. it was fun. i had fun. then we went to the galleria. i havent been to the galleria in FOREVER ! lol i had tht good ole pizza, saw tyron, my favorite brother and the love of my freaking life, and ashlyn and d'ann. i missed them. and of course i saw kerry. =) hehe joe went to lamar university so i didnt see him. WOMP ! lol but yeah i had fun.
church was amazing as always. learned alot. like i always do.
so me and twin rode bck to sam with my friend darian and he got a flat tire. and we helped him change it ! lol tyron said thts wifey material. hahahaha i agree..
anywho, i just found out tht i have a paper to do ugh ! and a presentation to do tomorrow, but im not rally too worried about tht. i got tht ! =)
uhh, im going to see drake this friday with kerry @ club HUSH. im sooo excited ! i love drake. hehehe
now i feel like im writing too much lol, i think im excited today. but umm, im going to lunch with jessica and ill write in you later.
byeeee
rae <3
Monday, October 26, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
sooo
i failed my damn bio test with a 66. UGH
i thought i really would do well. or at least get a damn c ! ugh.
on a lighter note, if you havent read my brothers blog (a mind untamed) you should. it is amazing. esp since he wrote about me in one of em. =)
umm..its really cold. but its sooo pretty. i been writing tht on twitter and facebook. now YOU ! lol
i went to a bonfire yesterday. i felt soo involved. like ireally had school spirit. it was nice. we ate and everything. it was cool..
i spent the night with rachelle and jessica last night. stayed up til damn near 5 i nthe a.m. doing absolutely nothing. lol a damn shame. i missed my 1230 class yesterday. i was sooo tired i slept til 1 in the afternood. smh.
dnt judge me please. lol umm....lets see..
i dnt really have much else to say today blogspot. im just in such a cheery mood. its cold but the sun is shining. its great. i ate and just feel good. everytime i walk around i just wanna smile at everyone i see. thts how good my day is going. =) i love this feeling.
im listening to my ipod. finally im getting bck into my normal routine when i write in you. lol
im not going to houston this weekend. =( but whatever. it should be nice for me to sty up here for a few weekends. lol im going bck to houston next weekend tho. i get to go to lamars homecoming. how exciting !!! i miss them ! i miss cheering and everything. high school was the best.
umm...i think my meal plan is bck on as of today. i havent tried it yet. but i will..sooner or later. im staying this weekend with jessica. everybodys going to sfa for their homecoming. womp. im probably NOT. lol i asked kerry to come up here but he said NO. =( he is sooo rude to me. but whatever, i'll show his ass.
but uhh..im getting on facebook now. i'll write later.
byeeeee
rae<3
i thought i really would do well. or at least get a damn c ! ugh.
on a lighter note, if you havent read my brothers blog (a mind untamed) you should. it is amazing. esp since he wrote about me in one of em. =)
umm..its really cold. but its sooo pretty. i been writing tht on twitter and facebook. now YOU ! lol
i went to a bonfire yesterday. i felt soo involved. like ireally had school spirit. it was nice. we ate and everything. it was cool..
i spent the night with rachelle and jessica last night. stayed up til damn near 5 i nthe a.m. doing absolutely nothing. lol a damn shame. i missed my 1230 class yesterday. i was sooo tired i slept til 1 in the afternood. smh.
dnt judge me please. lol umm....lets see..
i dnt really have much else to say today blogspot. im just in such a cheery mood. its cold but the sun is shining. its great. i ate and just feel good. everytime i walk around i just wanna smile at everyone i see. thts how good my day is going. =) i love this feeling.
im listening to my ipod. finally im getting bck into my normal routine when i write in you. lol
im not going to houston this weekend. =( but whatever. it should be nice for me to sty up here for a few weekends. lol im going bck to houston next weekend tho. i get to go to lamars homecoming. how exciting !!! i miss them ! i miss cheering and everything. high school was the best.
umm...i think my meal plan is bck on as of today. i havent tried it yet. but i will..sooner or later. im staying this weekend with jessica. everybodys going to sfa for their homecoming. womp. im probably NOT. lol i asked kerry to come up here but he said NO. =( he is sooo rude to me. but whatever, i'll show his ass.
but uhh..im getting on facebook now. i'll write later.
byeeeee
rae<3
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
hmpf..
i havent written in you lately.
and im sooo sry. alots been going on.
i have yet to tell you about my first homecoming experience in college. i didnt go to the game or the step show. but i went to aaallll the parties. lol got DRUNK. i mean..WASTED. we were done tht night. but i would do it all over again (wink) lol
i dnt have any regrets or anything..just have memories and i had FUN. lol
anywho..this college life has been great. i needa work on my study skills thts for damn sure. i needa start going to bed earlier. i dnt get enough sleep but its only me to blame. i stay up late listening to my ipod and playing my sudoku puzzles. as hard as it may seem to believe those puzzles are addicting really..they challenge your mind. and i guess my mind loves a challenge. lol
umm..erian came home last weekend. (i love you !) we had an amazing time. me and her got so close this summer sooo i was happy when she came bck. she goes to school in virginia so she doesnt come home much. but thas my bitch though. lol we saw paranormal activity which WAS NOT what everybody said it would be. it wasnt the scary honestly. it was quite boring when it first began. smh, whatever..
me and my bff had a little issue amongst one another at one point. i just thought i was gonna lose my best friend. friends like tht are very hard to find. he knws me more than i knw my damn self. and he understands some of my actions when others just take them as rude or disrespectful or stuck up or whatever the society claims them to be. he sees them in a diferent perspective. i love him for tht. we're like "super friends" lol (as he said) its not too many ppl in this world tht will ever understand you fully. sadly but truthfully there arent more than at least 4 ppl who can really understand who you really are. well, its really not tht sad. some friends are just closer than others and thts ok. ive accepted tht fully. i love joe. we're good now. got yall jealous eh ? lol
umm, i love tyron. thts my brother. point blnk, he's like the fckng love of my life. ive never had anyone love me the way he does besides joe and my mama and jesus. lol he loves me more than i love myself sometimes. and thts hard to find. and what tops it off is tht he's a MAN. i appreciate the male figures in my life because my father was never around. when he and joe and a few others came along and love me like tht, it makes me wanna live so tht i can love them bck in the same amount if not more. i love him. blood couldnt make us any closer.
kerry is doing awesome. i miss him when im up here and he's dwn there. last weekend i just held his hand and stareda t him as he took me home. realizing tht boyfriends like tht are hard to find as well. im keeping him. lol i love tht man too. he like, does things for me even when i annoy him or piss him off. he takes on roles in my life tht he really doesnt have to but he chooses to because he loves me tht much. i'm just a blessed little something arent i ? lol to have ppl in my life like this..why would i ever complain ? ---->becuz im human. lol
anywho..ive been doing good up here. OH ! my meal plan is like inactive right now. =/ its hard because i have to pay for everything i eat. and i mean, i just dnt have money coming from every which way. mommy got laid off about a month ago..thts kind of hard on her. andi dnt wnt her thinking she has to give me money every day. she still has to tke care of my little sister ya knw ?
but im making it. i havent starved yet. lol an you believe im in this computer lab with NO music ? smh my damn ipod is in my room. but my right headphone blew out. =( tht sucks right ?!
oh my new musical crushes, J.COLE!!! and Myles..and Dinoo Supremmoooo (even tho rachelle stole him from me) hahaha but they good though. i mainly wanna focus on J.COLEE. he's simply amazing with his words. i cant wait til REAL talent hits these radios and bumrushes all this trash out the damn way. i been looking for real music for a long time.
anyway..im hungry. nothing new right ?
OH, me and chad are bck on good terms, for the most part. which i didnt expect considering the words he spoke to me. lol but its cool whatever. things happen. we good now.
i gotta headache im ungry, and i think i just passed my biology exam. i hope so.
im outttt bye
rae <3
and im sooo sry. alots been going on.
i have yet to tell you about my first homecoming experience in college. i didnt go to the game or the step show. but i went to aaallll the parties. lol got DRUNK. i mean..WASTED. we were done tht night. but i would do it all over again (wink) lol
i dnt have any regrets or anything..just have memories and i had FUN. lol
anywho..this college life has been great. i needa work on my study skills thts for damn sure. i needa start going to bed earlier. i dnt get enough sleep but its only me to blame. i stay up late listening to my ipod and playing my sudoku puzzles. as hard as it may seem to believe those puzzles are addicting really..they challenge your mind. and i guess my mind loves a challenge. lol
umm..erian came home last weekend. (i love you !) we had an amazing time. me and her got so close this summer sooo i was happy when she came bck. she goes to school in virginia so she doesnt come home much. but thas my bitch though. lol we saw paranormal activity which WAS NOT what everybody said it would be. it wasnt the scary honestly. it was quite boring when it first began. smh, whatever..
me and my bff had a little issue amongst one another at one point. i just thought i was gonna lose my best friend. friends like tht are very hard to find. he knws me more than i knw my damn self. and he understands some of my actions when others just take them as rude or disrespectful or stuck up or whatever the society claims them to be. he sees them in a diferent perspective. i love him for tht. we're like "super friends" lol (as he said) its not too many ppl in this world tht will ever understand you fully. sadly but truthfully there arent more than at least 4 ppl who can really understand who you really are. well, its really not tht sad. some friends are just closer than others and thts ok. ive accepted tht fully. i love joe. we're good now. got yall jealous eh ? lol
umm, i love tyron. thts my brother. point blnk, he's like the fckng love of my life. ive never had anyone love me the way he does besides joe and my mama and jesus. lol he loves me more than i love myself sometimes. and thts hard to find. and what tops it off is tht he's a MAN. i appreciate the male figures in my life because my father was never around. when he and joe and a few others came along and love me like tht, it makes me wanna live so tht i can love them bck in the same amount if not more. i love him. blood couldnt make us any closer.
kerry is doing awesome. i miss him when im up here and he's dwn there. last weekend i just held his hand and stareda t him as he took me home. realizing tht boyfriends like tht are hard to find as well. im keeping him. lol i love tht man too. he like, does things for me even when i annoy him or piss him off. he takes on roles in my life tht he really doesnt have to but he chooses to because he loves me tht much. i'm just a blessed little something arent i ? lol to have ppl in my life like this..why would i ever complain ? ---->becuz im human. lol
anywho..ive been doing good up here. OH ! my meal plan is like inactive right now. =/ its hard because i have to pay for everything i eat. and i mean, i just dnt have money coming from every which way. mommy got laid off about a month ago..thts kind of hard on her. andi dnt wnt her thinking she has to give me money every day. she still has to tke care of my little sister ya knw ?
but im making it. i havent starved yet. lol an you believe im in this computer lab with NO music ? smh my damn ipod is in my room. but my right headphone blew out. =( tht sucks right ?!
oh my new musical crushes, J.COLE!!! and Myles..and Dinoo Supremmoooo (even tho rachelle stole him from me) hahaha but they good though. i mainly wanna focus on J.COLEE. he's simply amazing with his words. i cant wait til REAL talent hits these radios and bumrushes all this trash out the damn way. i been looking for real music for a long time.
anyway..im hungry. nothing new right ?
OH, me and chad are bck on good terms, for the most part. which i didnt expect considering the words he spoke to me. lol but its cool whatever. things happen. we good now.
i gotta headache im ungry, and i think i just passed my biology exam. i hope so.
im outttt bye
rae <3
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
i did it again huh?
ugghh I been busy. lol, but i have had alot on my mind.
but you aint ready for whats been on my mind yet. as soon as i type it you gon be like..whaaaa?! and then i wont knw what to say. its been sitting on my mind tho. kinda bothersome at times but whatev. i can deal.
spent the night at jess and chell's house last night. and i realized tht i needa stop going home ever so often. i needa grow up, and get used to my surroundings. i needa get involved so i wont be so homesick ya knw? im almost an adult, lol. its time istart acting like it i guess.
me and chell went to the NaBJ meeting yesterday. National Black journalists. and you knw i loovee to write. seems exciting so, i guess ill give it a try. btw (i dnt even have my music on today, but i am in the computer lab lol) im finally done with my clases for the day. have i told you about this poetry lounge thing every wednesday? i cant remember if i did, but im finally gonna perform tomorrow. im gonna sing a gift from virgo by beyonce. i love tht song and i love the way i sound when i sing it.
oh and i finally got a skype! lol with no computer aint tht some shit? lol but its ok i be using jessicas computer. i was skyping my bff last night for foreeveerrrr. then i skyped kerry. its really fun. lol
i have a headache. sry to cut off so abruptly but its cold in here an i wanna go to my room. byeeee
<3 rae
but you aint ready for whats been on my mind yet. as soon as i type it you gon be like..whaaaa?! and then i wont knw what to say. its been sitting on my mind tho. kinda bothersome at times but whatev. i can deal.
spent the night at jess and chell's house last night. and i realized tht i needa stop going home ever so often. i needa grow up, and get used to my surroundings. i needa get involved so i wont be so homesick ya knw? im almost an adult, lol. its time istart acting like it i guess.
me and chell went to the NaBJ meeting yesterday. National Black journalists. and you knw i loovee to write. seems exciting so, i guess ill give it a try. btw (i dnt even have my music on today, but i am in the computer lab lol) im finally done with my clases for the day. have i told you about this poetry lounge thing every wednesday? i cant remember if i did, but im finally gonna perform tomorrow. im gonna sing a gift from virgo by beyonce. i love tht song and i love the way i sound when i sing it.
oh and i finally got a skype! lol with no computer aint tht some shit? lol but its ok i be using jessicas computer. i was skyping my bff last night for foreeveerrrr. then i skyped kerry. its really fun. lol
i have a headache. sry to cut off so abruptly but its cold in here an i wanna go to my room. byeeee
<3 rae
Friday, September 11, 2009
..+
im in my realm. lol
sitting in the computer lab listening to my ipod. as of now nicki minaj is on. i love it. i been on facebook for the majority of this time. nothing important though.
man im hungry. im supposed to be going to workout later. and i think i might be going bck to the H today. idk, right now it aint looking like it. but i havent looked at my phone in abt an hour because ive been occupied with this computer. i wore a dress today. but my hair is ruined. i walked to my classes, which by the way i only had two today, in the rain with NO umbrella. =( i have weave in my head. lol, enough said.
tht would be a good reason for me wanting to go home. i dnt feel like paying to get my hair done when monica can do it for free. all i need is a perm. geesh..
i havent tlked to my bff today. we had a falling out a few days ago. maybe about a week ago. it was really major. i just have my thoughts about everything and he begs to differ. whatever..we clearly wont always agree on everything. and sometimes those disagreements lead to those fights, but we make it thru. always.
i finally have some major paper-writing homework. lol due monday. uggghhh. i havent even bought the second book for my history class. what a bum and a failure i am right? thts ok. ima pick it up. i cant let this money go to waste, i aint rich! lol my stomach hurts. i think its gas. or maybe im hungry. i havent eaten anything but a granola bar and drank a capri sun. pitiful breakfast right? i barely got up in time to make it to my first class. me and my friend peter got something to eat last night. stayed up til 2 something. i aint go to sleep til 3 in the a.m. i knw, i knw, my timing is great. but its ok =). ima make it.
OOOOOHHHHHHH!! there's this thing called the poet's lounge. i just love, love, LOVE it. the ppl are soo welcoming. they embrace your talent. its small and homey. all love in there. and i love it. i think im gonna do something next wednesday. it was inspiring, really. and it motivated me to show off my talent just like everyone else. and charleston, do you remember him? monica's ex boyfriend? well anywho, he is the co-host of the thing which makes it easier to wanna introduce myself to the world. lol and kyle invited me. wouldyalookattht? isnt tht a surprise? well not really, cuz we're still really good friends. but still..
i washed clothes at rachelle and jessica's house yesterday. stayed over there for a while. and you knw what else i like to do? i love to do sudoku puzzles. they are so relaxing to me. lol, weird i knw but im different. what can i say. maybe a nerd. lol, but they arent even tht hard. they're fun. i can do like 10 in an hour bck to bck. im so lame. lol
im still istening to this guy chris king. he goes off! there's this particular song tht rachelle introduced me too. its called "silhouette." i just love it. he uses the "say yes" instrumental. the one by floetry? yeahh..he killed it. i love it.
im bout to go get something to eat. and maybe purchase an umbrella. lol and im waiting on twin to get out of the meeting soo, ill write later. promise. :)
byyeeeee.
rae <3
sitting in the computer lab listening to my ipod. as of now nicki minaj is on. i love it. i been on facebook for the majority of this time. nothing important though.
man im hungry. im supposed to be going to workout later. and i think i might be going bck to the H today. idk, right now it aint looking like it. but i havent looked at my phone in abt an hour because ive been occupied with this computer. i wore a dress today. but my hair is ruined. i walked to my classes, which by the way i only had two today, in the rain with NO umbrella. =( i have weave in my head. lol, enough said.
tht would be a good reason for me wanting to go home. i dnt feel like paying to get my hair done when monica can do it for free. all i need is a perm. geesh..
i havent tlked to my bff today. we had a falling out a few days ago. maybe about a week ago. it was really major. i just have my thoughts about everything and he begs to differ. whatever..we clearly wont always agree on everything. and sometimes those disagreements lead to those fights, but we make it thru. always.
i finally have some major paper-writing homework. lol due monday. uggghhh. i havent even bought the second book for my history class. what a bum and a failure i am right? thts ok. ima pick it up. i cant let this money go to waste, i aint rich! lol my stomach hurts. i think its gas. or maybe im hungry. i havent eaten anything but a granola bar and drank a capri sun. pitiful breakfast right? i barely got up in time to make it to my first class. me and my friend peter got something to eat last night. stayed up til 2 something. i aint go to sleep til 3 in the a.m. i knw, i knw, my timing is great. but its ok =). ima make it.
OOOOOHHHHHHH!! there's this thing called the poet's lounge. i just love, love, LOVE it. the ppl are soo welcoming. they embrace your talent. its small and homey. all love in there. and i love it. i think im gonna do something next wednesday. it was inspiring, really. and it motivated me to show off my talent just like everyone else. and charleston, do you remember him? monica's ex boyfriend? well anywho, he is the co-host of the thing which makes it easier to wanna introduce myself to the world. lol and kyle invited me. wouldyalookattht? isnt tht a surprise? well not really, cuz we're still really good friends. but still..
i washed clothes at rachelle and jessica's house yesterday. stayed over there for a while. and you knw what else i like to do? i love to do sudoku puzzles. they are so relaxing to me. lol, weird i knw but im different. what can i say. maybe a nerd. lol, but they arent even tht hard. they're fun. i can do like 10 in an hour bck to bck. im so lame. lol
im still istening to this guy chris king. he goes off! there's this particular song tht rachelle introduced me too. its called "silhouette." i just love it. he uses the "say yes" instrumental. the one by floetry? yeahh..he killed it. i love it.
im bout to go get something to eat. and maybe purchase an umbrella. lol and im waiting on twin to get out of the meeting soo, ill write later. promise. :)
byyeeeee.
rae <3
Thursday, September 10, 2009
woooaaah
im sooo sry. =( ive been neglecting you. not on purpose though!! i been busy for real. i FINALLY got some homework! lol, and i been doing it. i been studying too.
you wont belive who ive been chit chatting with......the stalkee!!!! lol, it aint no lovey dovey type shit. its just some friendly tlk. its nothing..lol
i needa get this hair done, needa get these eyebrows wxed. hmpf, im not really finna write a book like i usually do. im not in my usual setting to do so. you knw, the music, the computer lab, the solitude. lol
so ima write later. =)
Friday, September 4, 2009
home sweet home.
oh my goodness..im soooo glad to be home.
i dnt think yall understand. houston is where its AT!!! lol, i went to my two morning classes, washed some clothes, then rode with twin back to houston. im at my aunts house now using her new computer. lol
i couldnt wait to get here. i been thinkin about it alll week..i get to see my babydaddyy..lol. my best friend, my mama my sister my dog. lol EVERYBODY..its like i dnt even wanna go back. i wanna stay here and never go bck to huntsville. haha
im not writing much because im too excited to sit in one place. lol, but i shall write later.
byeeeee.
rae <3.
i dnt think yall understand. houston is where its AT!!! lol, i went to my two morning classes, washed some clothes, then rode with twin back to houston. im at my aunts house now using her new computer. lol
i couldnt wait to get here. i been thinkin about it alll week..i get to see my babydaddyy..lol. my best friend, my mama my sister my dog. lol EVERYBODY..its like i dnt even wanna go back. i wanna stay here and never go bck to huntsville. haha
im not writing much because im too excited to sit in one place. lol, but i shall write later.
byeeeee.
rae <3.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
its wednesday...
easy yves saint..im on it hard. i am sooooo late. ive always heard of him but i never just listened to his tuff. wtf what was i thinking? i love tht shit. im listening to him and chris king right now..
i went to workout yesterday. it made me feel like going home. i just dnt feel relaxed in there. its fun, but..idk. when im in the computer lab i feel home. cuz its like i block everybody off. remember when you were younger and you were taking a test and your teacher would make you put a piece of cardboard or something between you and your neighbor so thth yall wouldnt copy? well i feel like i got three pieces to block me off from everybody else in this damn lab. its almost like i dnt even see anyone else..especially when i have my ipod with me..i aint worried abt anyone or anything else..
my classes were sooo long, well they seemed like it. my first class was fine. but my bio class? ugh, its only 50 min. but the way she be tlkng, it seems like the longest minutes of my entire damn day. and on wednesday, i take a lab from 2-350pm. soo boring. and its cold in tht damn room. but whatever, its cool. my 430 math class was cancelled today. yessssssss..i knw everything i needa knw any damn way. right now im listening to chris king's "lyrical exercise." i love it.
i seen some typos already. please forgive me.lol. im going home this weekend. yesss. i cant wait! im so ready to get home! im going to the nail shop tomorrow..then i may be getting my hair done when i get home. idk im just happy to get home. to sleep in MY bed in MY house. i miss my best friends, i miss my mama, i miss my dog, and my sister, and my job, and my papa. i miss houston, shit.
i been doing good huh? writing in you every dayand stuff. i feel good. i need to blog. especially going to college. i need a getaway and this is definitely it. now i havent started on my poem. well i havent started writing it, i started thinking about it in bio today while my teacher was going on and on about nothing. lol, and i knw you can keep a secret.
i love to text my bff. like, if i dnt get a text from him every day and night ill text him and ask why. sometimes i feel like im being a bother. i didnt text him tht much today and i dnt think i will cuz i thnik im getting on his nerves. i just be missing him. him and kerry and my mama. i tlk to them the most throughout my entire day. they like mean everything to me..i just wanna hear from them. =( my mama loves my bff by the way, too. she just cant wait for the day tht we actually get in a relationship, lmao and i keep telling her tht it isnt gonna happen. i just cant imagine tht. lol. and kerry..he's a keeper. i aint lettin him go.
now..i just wanna keep writing. i wish i could sit here all day and blog blog blog blog eat sleep blog blog blog write music read write blog blog blog blog. lol tht would be a lovely schedule for some days..id prolly eat a bit more though. hahaha
but im done i guess. its almost 7:00. tht isnt late at all..but, hmpf. i think i can keep goingg.
so you knw my ex guy kyle? i think he tryna flirt again. and idk about tht. lol but we cool though. really good friends, but we def. aint taking it further. remember what happened last time? i do.
now im listening to wiz khalifa. aaaaghhhh!! wiz khalifa, drake, chris king, yves saint, kanye west, jay-z, tyga..i love em ALLLLLL..
have i worn you out?? my fingers aint even tired yet..this music is settling to my soul. its settling my thoughts too. there arent as many typos in this one as there are in the previous ones right? i didnt have my music on the last two. ima have it more often now though. =)
ima end it here though. and ill probably be back. if not tonight, ima write tomorrow. i got a lil homework. and when i say a "lil", thts exactly what i mean. it aint nothing but a little worksheet for my sam136 class. ima do tht in my room, i guess. and eat some oreos. i gotta pee. lol
im outtt, byee. <3
rae.
i went to workout yesterday. it made me feel like going home. i just dnt feel relaxed in there. its fun, but..idk. when im in the computer lab i feel home. cuz its like i block everybody off. remember when you were younger and you were taking a test and your teacher would make you put a piece of cardboard or something between you and your neighbor so thth yall wouldnt copy? well i feel like i got three pieces to block me off from everybody else in this damn lab. its almost like i dnt even see anyone else..especially when i have my ipod with me..i aint worried abt anyone or anything else..
my classes were sooo long, well they seemed like it. my first class was fine. but my bio class? ugh, its only 50 min. but the way she be tlkng, it seems like the longest minutes of my entire damn day. and on wednesday, i take a lab from 2-350pm. soo boring. and its cold in tht damn room. but whatever, its cool. my 430 math class was cancelled today. yessssssss..i knw everything i needa knw any damn way. right now im listening to chris king's "lyrical exercise." i love it.
i seen some typos already. please forgive me.lol. im going home this weekend. yesss. i cant wait! im so ready to get home! im going to the nail shop tomorrow..then i may be getting my hair done when i get home. idk im just happy to get home. to sleep in MY bed in MY house. i miss my best friends, i miss my mama, i miss my dog, and my sister, and my job, and my papa. i miss houston, shit.
i been doing good huh? writing in you every dayand stuff. i feel good. i need to blog. especially going to college. i need a getaway and this is definitely it. now i havent started on my poem. well i havent started writing it, i started thinking about it in bio today while my teacher was going on and on about nothing. lol, and i knw you can keep a secret.
i love to text my bff. like, if i dnt get a text from him every day and night ill text him and ask why. sometimes i feel like im being a bother. i didnt text him tht much today and i dnt think i will cuz i thnik im getting on his nerves. i just be missing him. him and kerry and my mama. i tlk to them the most throughout my entire day. they like mean everything to me..i just wanna hear from them. =( my mama loves my bff by the way, too. she just cant wait for the day tht we actually get in a relationship, lmao and i keep telling her tht it isnt gonna happen. i just cant imagine tht. lol. and kerry..he's a keeper. i aint lettin him go.
now..i just wanna keep writing. i wish i could sit here all day and blog blog blog blog eat sleep blog blog blog write music read write blog blog blog blog. lol tht would be a lovely schedule for some days..id prolly eat a bit more though. hahaha
but im done i guess. its almost 7:00. tht isnt late at all..but, hmpf. i think i can keep goingg.
so you knw my ex guy kyle? i think he tryna flirt again. and idk about tht. lol but we cool though. really good friends, but we def. aint taking it further. remember what happened last time? i do.
now im listening to wiz khalifa. aaaaghhhh!! wiz khalifa, drake, chris king, yves saint, kanye west, jay-z, tyga..i love em ALLLLLL..
have i worn you out?? my fingers aint even tired yet..this music is settling to my soul. its settling my thoughts too. there arent as many typos in this one as there are in the previous ones right? i didnt have my music on the last two. ima have it more often now though. =)
ima end it here though. and ill probably be back. if not tonight, ima write tomorrow. i got a lil homework. and when i say a "lil", thts exactly what i mean. it aint nothing but a little worksheet for my sam136 class. ima do tht in my room, i guess. and eat some oreos. i gotta pee. lol
im outtt, byee. <3
rae.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
week 2
my stomach has been hurting like crazy..ughh. i took some tylenol PM last night. tht shit is NO JOKE! i am still drowsy and tired from last night. how am i gona stay up in class? hmpf..
i had a class at 1230 today..it was ok. i was just really sleepy. time flew by apparently, because its already 300 and i have a class in 30 minutes. shit, shit, shit. i dnt feel like going. but oh well..
did i mention tht my stalkee chatboxed me on facebook? whaaaa..? lol, we didnt really say much. things are different now and for some reason, i dnt really see a future for ever having what we used to have. sucks but, shit happens and you have to deal. im not sad or anything, its just funny how things play out. hmmm..
every night ive been staying up late texting my bff and tlking to kerry. two of the most important males in my life. i had a moment last night because sometimes i feel like im antisocial, in a bad way. i feel like ppl see me as a mean person and a rude person, when tht isnt me at all..im very kind. but then again, i can be very introverted. i tlkd to my bff abt tht last night. and he said tht i was beautifully unique. =) it was so great to read tht. and then it was like, the issue tht i was having was no longer an issue. see, i have a hard time trusting ppl. i dnt let ppl in too easily, and its hard to figure me out. maybe tht could be the reason why ppl perceive me in a way tht is extremely opposite to what i really am. i like my space..and im content when im by myself. i dnt need constant attention. i dnt need to be with a crowd all of the time. me, myself, and i can keep me sane. and i have a select circle of really really close friends. im friendly, but im not everyones FRIEND. (if you get the difference). and i thought it was a bad thing, but it isnt so im fine now.
i sometimes have my days when i just go into deep thought. and i thnk about EVERYTHING. my life, and my relationships, mainly. those things confuse me sometimes. my feelings confuse me sometimes. and why would i dare try to sort them out with anyone else when i cant even understand them on my own? excuse the typos again, i got a mind full of things, lol.
i havent eaten anything all day, except for some cheetos. so when i get out of this 33o class, im going straight to the cafeteria and take FULL advantage of everything thts in there. lol. im so hungry. i hope my teacher lets us out early again. she usually does. i hate political science, well i dnt hate it. it just isnt my fav thing to read and study about. anywho...its cold in this computer lab. i have a bag of doritos in my purse. tht should hold me over. after i leave the cafeteria me and my friend are gonna go to the gym and work out. lol, weird, i knw. im thinking if i am really gonna do some exercise. lol we'll just have to see when i get there.
im done for now..id better start walking to class. UGH!
im outttt. <3
rae.
i had a class at 1230 today..it was ok. i was just really sleepy. time flew by apparently, because its already 300 and i have a class in 30 minutes. shit, shit, shit. i dnt feel like going. but oh well..
did i mention tht my stalkee chatboxed me on facebook? whaaaa..? lol, we didnt really say much. things are different now and for some reason, i dnt really see a future for ever having what we used to have. sucks but, shit happens and you have to deal. im not sad or anything, its just funny how things play out. hmmm..
every night ive been staying up late texting my bff and tlking to kerry. two of the most important males in my life. i had a moment last night because sometimes i feel like im antisocial, in a bad way. i feel like ppl see me as a mean person and a rude person, when tht isnt me at all..im very kind. but then again, i can be very introverted. i tlkd to my bff abt tht last night. and he said tht i was beautifully unique. =) it was so great to read tht. and then it was like, the issue tht i was having was no longer an issue. see, i have a hard time trusting ppl. i dnt let ppl in too easily, and its hard to figure me out. maybe tht could be the reason why ppl perceive me in a way tht is extremely opposite to what i really am. i like my space..and im content when im by myself. i dnt need constant attention. i dnt need to be with a crowd all of the time. me, myself, and i can keep me sane. and i have a select circle of really really close friends. im friendly, but im not everyones FRIEND. (if you get the difference). and i thought it was a bad thing, but it isnt so im fine now.
i sometimes have my days when i just go into deep thought. and i thnk about EVERYTHING. my life, and my relationships, mainly. those things confuse me sometimes. my feelings confuse me sometimes. and why would i dare try to sort them out with anyone else when i cant even understand them on my own? excuse the typos again, i got a mind full of things, lol.
i havent eaten anything all day, except for some cheetos. so when i get out of this 33o class, im going straight to the cafeteria and take FULL advantage of everything thts in there. lol. im so hungry. i hope my teacher lets us out early again. she usually does. i hate political science, well i dnt hate it. it just isnt my fav thing to read and study about. anywho...its cold in this computer lab. i have a bag of doritos in my purse. tht should hold me over. after i leave the cafeteria me and my friend are gonna go to the gym and work out. lol, weird, i knw. im thinking if i am really gonna do some exercise. lol we'll just have to see when i get there.
im done for now..id better start walking to class. UGH!
im outttt. <3
rae.
Monday, August 31, 2009
aah.
"..those three words mean so much when you say them. i can survive with just you and those words.."
i wrote tht. well i thought of it and then i wrote it. thts usually how it works, right? lol but it is one of the most touching and true things tht i have ever written and ive been posting it everywhere. i wrote it for my best friend. the extent of his love for me is like no other besides my family and my boyfriend, and sometimes not even him. ive had ppl to tell me they love me, but when i can just read the words thru a text and know tht your feelings are true..it warms my heart. it matters not what fashion or form he tells me, it just matters tht he tels me and he means it. its hard to find ppl in the world like tht, but i did. what an awesome bff.
hmpf..so im sitting in the computer lab at school, thinking. about life, love, oreos, homework, money, classes, social life, food, family, houston, my dog, music, writing, poetry. everything. all crowding my mind at once. so excuse me if i have any typos. im just tryna get it all out..its routine for my boyfriend and i tht we fall asleep on the phone every night for the first week of school. well the first week is over and we still do it. thts another keeper. some boys who call themselves "boyfriends" are exactly tht, but thts it. they dnt go above and beyond to be your friend and your confidant, and your guide, and your shoulder. see kerry? he provides when he doesnt have to. he listens and he hears me. for tht i appreciate him. he has brought new aspects to my life as i have done for him. love like no other for him. he has never felt for someone outside of his family as he has felt for me. and im glad i could be tht person.
i miss my mama mayneee. and i eat ALL THE DAMN TIME! like, im bound to gain weight. but thts ok, i can afford a few pounds. but ONLY a few. lol sam has been cool so far. all my classes today were boring as hell. my stomach has been hurting. so when im done with you im gonna wlk back to my room, eat some oreos, tke a tylenol pm and hit the sheets. well, i think i have homework. uggghhh. its not hard though..
its so relieving and alleviating to write. to type. to free my inner thoughts to you. sometimes i cant really tlk and say everything tht needs to be said but when i write? everything kinda just flows.out of my mind and pours onto this blog and it feels good. sometimes ppl cant really understand where im coming from or what im saying, but all you do is take it all in and listen. blogging was the best thing tht ever happened. well one of the best things..
i love it. now if i could just get back up on my poetry and my lyrics. i could create masterpieces. hell, my blogs are masterpieces, lol. and one day i shall publish them. soon.
im getting kinda hungry..ill write tomorrow. wel ill try my hardest.
byyeee <3
rae.
i wrote tht. well i thought of it and then i wrote it. thts usually how it works, right? lol but it is one of the most touching and true things tht i have ever written and ive been posting it everywhere. i wrote it for my best friend. the extent of his love for me is like no other besides my family and my boyfriend, and sometimes not even him. ive had ppl to tell me they love me, but when i can just read the words thru a text and know tht your feelings are true..it warms my heart. it matters not what fashion or form he tells me, it just matters tht he tels me and he means it. its hard to find ppl in the world like tht, but i did. what an awesome bff.
hmpf..so im sitting in the computer lab at school, thinking. about life, love, oreos, homework, money, classes, social life, food, family, houston, my dog, music, writing, poetry. everything. all crowding my mind at once. so excuse me if i have any typos. im just tryna get it all out..its routine for my boyfriend and i tht we fall asleep on the phone every night for the first week of school. well the first week is over and we still do it. thts another keeper. some boys who call themselves "boyfriends" are exactly tht, but thts it. they dnt go above and beyond to be your friend and your confidant, and your guide, and your shoulder. see kerry? he provides when he doesnt have to. he listens and he hears me. for tht i appreciate him. he has brought new aspects to my life as i have done for him. love like no other for him. he has never felt for someone outside of his family as he has felt for me. and im glad i could be tht person.
i miss my mama mayneee. and i eat ALL THE DAMN TIME! like, im bound to gain weight. but thts ok, i can afford a few pounds. but ONLY a few. lol sam has been cool so far. all my classes today were boring as hell. my stomach has been hurting. so when im done with you im gonna wlk back to my room, eat some oreos, tke a tylenol pm and hit the sheets. well, i think i have homework. uggghhh. its not hard though..
its so relieving and alleviating to write. to type. to free my inner thoughts to you. sometimes i cant really tlk and say everything tht needs to be said but when i write? everything kinda just flows.out of my mind and pours onto this blog and it feels good. sometimes ppl cant really understand where im coming from or what im saying, but all you do is take it all in and listen. blogging was the best thing tht ever happened. well one of the best things..
i love it. now if i could just get back up on my poetry and my lyrics. i could create masterpieces. hell, my blogs are masterpieces, lol. and one day i shall publish them. soon.
im getting kinda hungry..ill write tomorrow. wel ill try my hardest.
byyeee <3
rae.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
hmpf.
daaaaamn. how long has it been..? a minute.
well, me and kerry are amazing. we make a year next month.
me and joe, my bestest friend are awesome...i'd die for tht one.
i started at shsu already. college life aint really nothing special, if you ask me. lol just fewer authorites. more responsilities. no more 8 hour long school days though. thts a plus. all these walking. and these hills though..? tht aint cuttin it. but ima be in shape and fine when ppl see me. hahaha
i been spending time with jessica and rachelle alot. my mama aint really coping well with my departure, she'll be fine though. i'll give her two more weeks of "mourning." haha
the stalkee, he told me to forget he ever came into my life. smh, and i did just tht. its really messed up how tht relationship played out, but hey? shit happens..and i just get so tired of complaining and dwelling so i left tht as what it was and kept it moving.
it feels so good to blog. to type. to write. it feels so relaxing. but ima head out..i aint forget about ya. im back. =)
byeee <3
rae.
Monday, June 1, 2009
3..2..1..
and she's off! i graduauted from lamar high school yesterday at 1pm at reliant stadium. it was bittersweet. then i went out to eat. and THEN!!!!
ugghhh. i saw my stalkee. in the most awkward way. he ccompletely deletted me. or at least tried to delete me out of his life. deleted me from his facebook. deleted my number from his phone. everything. and it initially pissed me off. i dnt think you understand how long ive been by his side. and yet, he deletes me like im nothing.
so im with my bestest friend at his house, and i end up in the car with my stalkee. thefuck? sooo awkward. he takes me home. and tht was it. lol. ugghhhhhh.
anyway, im excited about thhe summer. beachesss,workingg.FUN. im excited. i start school in the FALL. SAM HOUSTON STATE UNIVERSITY!!!! i had a great weekend. just gotta keep you updated.
im outttt. <3
ugghhh. i saw my stalkee. in the most awkward way. he ccompletely deletted me. or at least tried to delete me out of his life. deleted me from his facebook. deleted my number from his phone. everything. and it initially pissed me off. i dnt think you understand how long ive been by his side. and yet, he deletes me like im nothing.
so im with my bestest friend at his house, and i end up in the car with my stalkee. thefuck? sooo awkward. he takes me home. and tht was it. lol. ugghhhhhh.
anyway, im excited about thhe summer. beachesss,workingg.FUN. im excited. i start school in the FALL. SAM HOUSTON STATE UNIVERSITY!!!! i had a great weekend. just gotta keep you updated.
im outttt. <3
Thursday, May 21, 2009
got some things on my chest,
gotta get em cleared. its really low of you. to pop in and out of my life. and like a dumbass i continue to let you in. man...i wonder why i keep doing this to myself. but thts the least of my problems. this aint the first time you've done me like this, and hopefully it WILL be my last. ugghhhh.
but yeah...graduation is near. thank god. and im separating form my boyfriend. and i think thts a good thing. cuz, i keep getting agravated with him. he doesnt respect the boundaries of this relationship. but maybe its just me. which is why i need time away from you. i gotta get away.
im not writing much though. my mind and my thoughts are definitely not settled.
im ouutttt.
but yeah...graduation is near. thank god. and im separating form my boyfriend. and i think thts a good thing. cuz, i keep getting agravated with him. he doesnt respect the boundaries of this relationship. but maybe its just me. which is why i need time away from you. i gotta get away.
im not writing much though. my mind and my thoughts are definitely not settled.
im ouutttt.
Monday, May 11, 2009
soooo...
im at a loss. i dnt know what im doing right now with my relationship. its slipping through my fingers and aint shit i can do about it. im fighting for it but damn...im all alone and shit. ugghhh. i aint got time for relationship problems like this man. im tired.
on a lighter note...D R A K E was on point when he came to Houston friday night. ON POINT!!! i love him like..for real. just seeing him in person, live, in the flesh. it seemed so surreal. i knew every song man. was sweating, hot, hair all messed up. and i aint even care. it was worth it. im gonna meet him one day. i sent him a demo and everything. ima get there yall. lol
i saw my stalkee today. [blushes] thts my nigga mayynneeeee. lol
graduation coming, senior check out, senior picnic, blah blah blah. im ready.
but im outtt. byeee! <3
on a lighter note...D R A K E was on point when he came to Houston friday night. ON POINT!!! i love him like..for real. just seeing him in person, live, in the flesh. it seemed so surreal. i knew every song man. was sweating, hot, hair all messed up. and i aint even care. it was worth it. im gonna meet him one day. i sent him a demo and everything. ima get there yall. lol
i saw my stalkee today. [blushes] thts my nigga mayynneeeee. lol
graduation coming, senior check out, senior picnic, blah blah blah. im ready.
but im outtt. byeee! <3
Friday, May 1, 2009
its been a long timeee...
i shouldna left you.
ughh. but unfortunately i did. im sry. its not tht i been off you...its just tht i havent had time to just sit dwn and pour out all of my random thoughts to you. and when i write to you, i wanna be real. sooo...i figured. why waste my time if i aint gon give it 100 percent. eh? and it seems tht my stalkee was thinking tht way. or he just got lazy. you know how he goes on hiatus for a while and doesnt write in his blog for like...EVER?? well...he posted some new ones so...i'll continue to be faithful to you.
school aint been starting until 12:15 this week cuz of taks. yeesssss! lol. i been getting good sleep. the weather in houston is fucked up. for real. one day its raining, next day its sunny and hot, and the next day...OHMYGOODNESS!! i didnt tell you about prom!!
okay. so my dress was absolutely gorgeous. (and you know i looked gorgeous in it! lol) it started off as a rocky day. i didnt make it to my nail hair and make-up appt on time. then it was RAINING. like...ridiculous rain. then i had wardrobe malfunctions. ugh. but overall i looked good. we had fun. didnt get home til 5:30 the next morning. then we went to kemah later tth day. it was a nice weekend for real. i enjoyed myself.
next update? i just recently got into a car accident with a school bus. 3000 mulaaaa. can you believe tht shit?? they didnt issue out a ticket so we gotta pay tht shit OUTTA POCKET! ugghhh. i een trying to call the s chool bus ppl since wednesday. cuz i was NOT at fault. but hey...shit happens right? anyway...graduation is almost here. the end is bittersweet. im ready to leave, but then i have so many memories. aagghh. but ill save my punk tears for a later date.
but yeah...im hungry. so i shall write in you later. keep you posted.
im outtttt! <3
ughh. but unfortunately i did. im sry. its not tht i been off you...its just tht i havent had time to just sit dwn and pour out all of my random thoughts to you. and when i write to you, i wanna be real. sooo...i figured. why waste my time if i aint gon give it 100 percent. eh? and it seems tht my stalkee was thinking tht way. or he just got lazy. you know how he goes on hiatus for a while and doesnt write in his blog for like...EVER?? well...he posted some new ones so...i'll continue to be faithful to you.
school aint been starting until 12:15 this week cuz of taks. yeesssss! lol. i been getting good sleep. the weather in houston is fucked up. for real. one day its raining, next day its sunny and hot, and the next day...OHMYGOODNESS!! i didnt tell you about prom!!
okay. so my dress was absolutely gorgeous. (and you know i looked gorgeous in it! lol) it started off as a rocky day. i didnt make it to my nail hair and make-up appt on time. then it was RAINING. like...ridiculous rain. then i had wardrobe malfunctions. ugh. but overall i looked good. we had fun. didnt get home til 5:30 the next morning. then we went to kemah later tth day. it was a nice weekend for real. i enjoyed myself.
next update? i just recently got into a car accident with a school bus. 3000 mulaaaa. can you believe tht shit?? they didnt issue out a ticket so we gotta pay tht shit OUTTA POCKET! ugghhh. i een trying to call the s chool bus ppl since wednesday. cuz i was NOT at fault. but hey...shit happens right? anyway...graduation is almost here. the end is bittersweet. im ready to leave, but then i have so many memories. aagghh. but ill save my punk tears for a later date.
but yeah...im hungry. so i shall write in you later. keep you posted.
im outtttt! <3
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
hmmmm.
you are so perfect to me. yet i can identify each and every one of your imperfections. you are still perfect to me.
and i think its because i love you. i see past the things tht other ppl would deem disrespectful. or rude. or inconsiderate. because i know you. and it seems tht what we have is perfect. although it seems wrong in so many ways. i know nothing in this world is perfect. but you are perfect to me. not your ways. not your mannerisms. but you. are the epitome of perfection in my eyes. only because you are genuine and real with me. and tht is greatly appreciated. you tell me the raw truth--ALWAYS. no holding back. even when its nothing tht i wanna hear. you, my love, are perfect. in my eyes...in everyone elses?? they cant understand what i see. but it isnt for them to understand.
you're perfect. and i love you for tht.
im ouutttt. <3
Monday, March 30, 2009
niggas in the streets hatin me. man they trippin.
when im the only one thts really spittin. dun dun dunnnnn. lol.
lsg was fine. one fight. ended peacefully. they still started shooting though. ugghhh. silly niggas. anywho. i looked good. booyyyyy. i looked good. but i always looked good. i visited SHSU with twin and arianna on saturday. we got there late. lol. so we did a self-tour. which i personally believe was better than any other one. ratchet i knowww. but...
hmm...i nominated myself for prom queen. i got my dress. gotta go look for shoes and shit.
oohh!! im going into the studio this week or the next. to do my own stuff. thts exciting for me because music is life to me.
oh oh!!!! i got a job! whew!! at the mad potter in meyerland. im soooo excited. now all i need is a car.lol.
ok. im done here. [heeeyyy stalker. im ecstatic tht you started back blogging]
aight. byeeeeee. <3
Thursday, March 26, 2009
rainy days.
sooo. its raining outside. doesnt th suck?? well not really...unlike most ppl. i enjoy rainy days. it sets the right atmosphere for me to sleep. or cuddle. or eat. well...anything sets the right atmosphere for me to eat. lol. i like hearing it hit the window. and i like the smell of it especially when its against the hot pavement. its just a calming scent..yeaahhh. so. anywho. my stalkee started back writing on this thing. im glad. i didnt have anything to read. lol. thanks guy. school was kinda blah. especially cuz it was raining. but my government class was ok. we had a substitute so we watched this movie called "runaway jury." it was really good and we didnt even get to finish it. stupid bell. lol. lets tlk about prom!!!!
im getting my dress made. the colors are like a cream or an off-white. and gold & brwn. im excited. ima get my hair done all nice and shiit. lol. then there's so much fun to come after tht. lol. like the day after. im sooooo excited.
i got my progress report the other day. 100 92 100 80 90 70. tht 70 was in government. ughhh. im trying to boost tht one up. but yeahh...im in honors english. and i could never keep an A in tht class. so seeing tht i have had somewhere around the 90s for the past few progress and report cards,,,thts the only thing im worried about. i needa work a little harder in anatomy though (80). but im graduating for sure...i just dnt wanna take any finals. im already taking my government one cuz its required because its an hcc class. ugh. im just talking and talking about a whole bunch of foolishness. lol. ima stop here. im finna go update my ipod. buh byeeeee.
<3
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
sooo.
i have NOT been writing in you for a while. and sadly...there is no excuse. i get on facebook, myspace, and i update my ipod. i mean...dnt get me wrong. i come to the website. look to see if i have gotten any comments or something. but i dnt write...and i wouldnt be surprised if you felt a bit betrayed or neglected. i also have another blogging site. rae_alexis.livejournal.com. but ive been doing the same thing to it. although i know tht you are much more important to me...i just felt the need to say it. its just tht...its tiring. spilling out my day's information to you sometimes. and ive been extremely drained lately. soo...idk. im srt. but i will try to do better. i will. for real. lol. just lemme get my life together. aight?? aight. hi stalkeeee!!! (if you happen to read this.) but yeah...im bout to go homeee.
byeeeee. <3
Saturday, March 21, 2009
aaahhhh.
does anybody know where i can get links for casey veggies' musicc??!!!! i wnt it on my ipod and i cant find any of it!!!! its killing meeee!!!!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
ugh.
[random picture i know. i just felt like putting on here. lol. on to the juice of my blog...]i dnt know what to do. im usually the one with all the answers...to everybody elses questions. not to my own. how did i forget tht little detail?? its like...ugh. my mind tells me what i wanna do and my meotions dnt agree. but i find myself unhappy sometimes. and complaining. and i dnt wanna turn into one of those girls who stays involved in something tht doesnt make her happy. being controlled by torture. tht jsut aint meeee. but i dnt wanna leave. maybe i should just leave for a little bit and see the effects of tht. i just dnt think it will work though. ugh. [im not talking about my stalkee for all you nosey ones out there. lol. he'll rarely ever let me dwn] but...ugh. im hurting on the inside...again. and i told myself tht i wouldnt get this feeling with this one. but its here...and i dnt know what to do. but i'll just have to deal. like i always do. i'll just deal.
u-g-h.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
lol
man man man. what a night. sooo ive been sick since thursday. i mean...sick! runny nose, fever, stopped up, body aching, sore throat, headache, stomachache. ughhh. everythingg. so i get a bit better today and decide to go to chellies birthday dinner. mannnn. me and lori was gon go together. dinner starts at nine. we dnt get there until the dinner ended. are you kidding mee?? lori had to change, got stopped by the copsss, everythingg!!! so we were extremely late. they was leaving when we were coming. ughhh. sooo we stop by say happy birthday and then we leave. we go to this boyss "hotel shindig" wtf. we wlk in there...all fogged up. (weedsmoke) these niggas looked pitifulllll. whewwww. what a nightttt. im sitting at home. bored and fucking hungry. i might as well just go to sleep. my niggaaa wont come see me. my stalkee is sleep. i aint got nobody to tlk to. ughhhh. what an exciting saturday night eh?? JOKE. lol
whatever. im outt.
byyeeeeee. <3
whatever. im outt.
byyeeeeee. <3
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
blah
i am BACK. lol. its been a while yess?? not tht long.
i dnt really have much to say. i ben having a few relationship problems but...those are not to be exposed on here.
(ppl nosey) lol. yall didnt even know tht me and my stalkEE had a BIIGGGGG fall out.
well not really tht big. lmao. but we were not on good terms. BUT we back at it again.
nothin keeps us apart too long. anywhoo...thts kinda it.
lmao. byeeee
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Dnt ever forget the moment...
..."you began to doubt. transitioning from fitting in to standing out." [drake]
been piled up to my neck with schoolwork but its cool though. i can handle it. ughhh.
lsg tomorrow? yes. is stalkee going? dunno. lmao
im tired so im out.
byeeee. <3
been piled up to my neck with schoolwork but its cool though. i can handle it. ughhh.
lsg tomorrow? yes. is stalkee going? dunno. lmao
im tired so im out.
byeeee. <3
Saturday, February 14, 2009
drake, lykke li, mickey factz, kid cudi
ookkk. so im like in total and absolute love with these ppl. took me a while to find them (not so much drake but the rest of them) but i found them. better late than never right?? yeah. i love them cuz their stuff is different. its actual music ya knoww?? but yeahh....they are the most played artists on my iPod. please believe.
byeeee. <3
Friday, February 13, 2009
im busyyyy.
listening to so far gone. are you kidding mee?? drake is truly amazinggg. i made sure i had a hold of this mixtape. ughhh. im bout to start doing mixtapes. real tlk. just watch.
lol.
back to my music...
byeeee <3
lol.
back to my music...
byeeee <3
Saturday, February 7, 2009
bff told me to do this...
ughhh. joe. why do you make me admit the truth??
this will be really short. he told me to tell you tht i still loved you and tht i always will. so there. i love you. and you know tht will never change. no matter what the present situation is. you know who you are even if you dnt read the blog. and i will never write a blog like this again. lol.
byeee.
this will be really short. he told me to tell you tht i still loved you and tht i always will. so there. i love you. and you know tht will never change. no matter what the present situation is. you know who you are even if you dnt read the blog. and i will never write a blog like this again. lol.
byeee.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
you wiisssh.
i really dnt know why i put tht title for this blog. cuz it really aint nothin serious. i just felt like typin. my gpa is a 3.6. ranked 291 out of 886. sam houston with a major in mass communications. life is set out for me. lol.
i went to the zoo today wit my love. fun fun fun. and. well...
thts it. lmao.
byeeeee. <3
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
blaahhhh.
i just realized something. im graduating. im leaving and going to college. no more high school. no more none of tht. its bittersweet. you grow up but you leave your past behind. those are great memories. the good and the bad. maannnn. [tear] lol
anywho. it all of a sudden got cold outside. wtf. we had to cheer at a pep rally. no jackets no pants. just cheer uniform. tlk about freezing! ugh. but yeah...my day was boring.
i had brwn bag deli for the first time. they have THE best sandwiches ever!!!! lol. but yeah...im done. another pointless blog.
byyeeeee. <3
anywho. it all of a sudden got cold outside. wtf. we had to cheer at a pep rally. no jackets no pants. just cheer uniform. tlk about freezing! ugh. but yeah...my day was boring.
i had brwn bag deli for the first time. they have THE best sandwiches ever!!!! lol. but yeah...im done. another pointless blog.
byyeeeee. <3
Monday, January 26, 2009
self-explanatory.
so strong in the way tht i loved you.
so weak in the way i gave in.
so poor in my effort to keep you.
now our relationship is hard to mend.
but see i always have to spell it out for you.
for some reason you never understand.
i never tried to be the stop sign in your life
but i did try to make you a new man.
i tried to give you all of my heart
while trying to please someone else.
i tried to please you and the others
never thinking of pleasing myself.
but i know better. reality has come.
and your true colors i have now seen.
the wrong in your actions was clear.
but in your life you just thought id intervene.
so i fixed what i felt was wrong.
and kept my feeling towards you to myself.
then you tried to call me out on my imperfections.
i just had to let you know for yourself.
it was never tht i ever tried to keep you.
you could leave at anytime you pleased.
but you left and went the wrong direction.
and i didnt take your actions with ease.
but if you think tht you did nothing wrong.
then by all means continue in what you do.
and forget about whatever we had.
because clearly you wnt us to be thru.
but in honesty i cannot complain.
we're aware of the situation tht im in.
but tht was never an issue before you found yourself talking to a friend.
but you probably dropped me a long time ago.
and my rambling on here has no point.
and i didnt realize how much i loved you
until you hurt me just now. in my joints.
and in my heart. and in my mind. and in everywhere else you can think.
but things happen. ppl change. and ppl leave your life within a blink.
yes. i did go there. i went all the way. i am very hurt. but its cool. i'll be just fine. but because you decided to put me all out on YOUR blog i discreetly put you out on mine. and i smoothly let you know exactly how you were wrong and whether you agree with me or not doesnt matter. i understood who you were and how you were and what you needed. and i EXPECTED you to go out and tlk to someone else. but you went so low as to go to my closest friend. the audacity. but im done faulting you. im done. because the longer i stay mad at you the harder it is to move on with my life.
im out.
byyeeeeee. <3
Sunday, January 25, 2009
yeessss.
maaannn.
so im sick. sore throat stuffy nose coughing all over the place. lol. and i have a wedding to sing at next week. you have GOT to be kidding me.
anyway...i would go into detail about the past happenings of my weekend but id rather not. its in the past now and im over it. so anywayy...
another lsg pary in february. i msure they ready to shut tht one dwn too. ugghhhh. i dnt really have much else to say. this was jsut a pointless blog.
i got my license finally. but no car. yes...sucky i know. but...everything comes slowly i guess. but anywho...ima end it right here. im thru.
byyeeeee. <3
so im sick. sore throat stuffy nose coughing all over the place. lol. and i have a wedding to sing at next week. you have GOT to be kidding me.
anyway...i would go into detail about the past happenings of my weekend but id rather not. its in the past now and im over it. so anywayy...
another lsg pary in february. i msure they ready to shut tht one dwn too. ugghhhh. i dnt really have much else to say. this was jsut a pointless blog.
i got my license finally. but no car. yes...sucky i know. but...everything comes slowly i guess. but anywho...ima end it right here. im thru.
byyeeeee. <3
Monday, January 19, 2009
crazy weekend.
man. i dnt even wanna go into detail. just know tht is was fun up until sunday night at lsg. after tht?? it was all over.
now im exhausted. i need to get home. i need to do so much. i just wanna go home. ppl yelling at me all night cuz they thought i was so drunk tht i wasnt in my fucking right mind. wtf. are you kidding mee??
anyway. im out.
byyeeee.
now im exhausted. i need to get home. i need to do so much. i just wanna go home. ppl yelling at me all night cuz they thought i was so drunk tht i wasnt in my fucking right mind. wtf. are you kidding mee??
anyway. im out.
byyeeee.
Friday, January 16, 2009
update.
soo....i got accepted to my top school...SAM HOUSTON STATE UNIVERSITY. im very excited and proud of myself...thts what i have to tell you!!
senior girls...whew.
i looked good. all my girls looked good. the boyfriend went to. now lets tlk about how wasted everyone was. ohmygoodnesss. the party bus we rode on was amazing. white and black ppl was wildin. i had so much drank its unbelievable. got off the bus feelin GOOD. lol. but some ppls drunkeness didnt go too well. long story short: there was puke everywhere. niggas falling from left to right. but they survived. one of them was my girls...but thnk GOD she's ok now. but yeah...lots of ppl got in trouble too. not me but...it sucks. cuz aint none of my girls going to the upcoming party thts on sunday. well monica is...but the rest of them arent. :( anywho...
its been so cold outside lately. and i dnt like the cold AT ALL. id rathr it be hot. really. call me crazy if you wnt [my stalker would] he thinks im insane. we had the funniest convo last night. well...he thought it was hilarious i dnt see how humorous it was.
i was supposed to get my license today...things aint work out like i planned. smh. i was really pissed off about tht. but i guess it wasnt tht big of a deal. ugh. it was to meeee. im tired. my attitude is REAL rude---and idk why. i should really work on tht.
sooo...ive gotten used to my new house and im starting to like it. no carpet?? thts whats killing me. and the bugs. lmao. they fucking get in my nerves. and the heater wasnt working for a while. but its better now.
NOTORIOUS came out in theaters today. wish i could go see it but i guess tht idea is a NO NO. but...uhh...drake says this line in one of his songs and i just cant get enough of it. idk why but he says: "jealousy somethin i havent felt for years. theres nobody around for me to be jealous of." like....come on. who says true shit like tht nowadays??? aint nobody real in this world anymore man. thts sad. but anyway...ima end it right here. im getting bored and sleepy and hungry and grumpy. soo..
byeeeee. <3
Thursday, January 1, 2009
two thousand && nineee.
hahahaha. new year new me. lmao. i put tht on my facebook status for a little bit butt...i changed tht shit. change comes with TIME. and one day aint gon change me tht quick i promise.
anywho...i was at my friend raisha house. me d'ann arianna ashlyn maatra monica kerry ashley marquis. we had fun for real. marquis drunk ass hopped over a bucket on a bicycle. lmao. we popped fireworks. amazing. food movies fun.
aint nothin really change about me YET. i mean...i deleted some numbers so i could start fresh. but thts the thing. you actually have to START to make a change to actually MAKE the change. it dnt just come tht easy. if it did niggas woulda changed a long ass time ago. what you think?? but im lad its 2009. lots of thing happen this year. for example:
i graduate high school.
i go to college. (which means i go out of houston to begin a new life)
i become an adult.
i guess tht aint alot huh?? hahaha, but yeah...i think i might like 2009. i know tht hoe aint gon be perfect but it shall be better. i expect to be more mature...more headstrong...more independent...less gullible...more loving and considerate...i expect to change. but i dnt expect to change in 1 day. change is good but so is patience and time right??
but...im listening to this song called "Tht Was Then" by lalah hathaway. it is THE shit. lol. she says: "it was like a lifetime passed right thru my fingers so long ago.so much tht i didnt know. it was like a light shined dwn and showed me how...how to move on. tht was then and this is now." i love tht.
im moving!!! i really dnt feel like it though. its like you pack all your shit up to unpack it in like 2 or 3 days. ugghh. i hate it. but its for the better.
im out.
byyeeeee. <3
anywho...i was at my friend raisha house. me d'ann arianna ashlyn maatra monica kerry ashley marquis. we had fun for real. marquis drunk ass hopped over a bucket on a bicycle. lmao. we popped fireworks. amazing. food movies fun.
aint nothin really change about me YET. i mean...i deleted some numbers so i could start fresh. but thts the thing. you actually have to START to make a change to actually MAKE the change. it dnt just come tht easy. if it did niggas woulda changed a long ass time ago. what you think?? but im lad its 2009. lots of thing happen this year. for example:
i graduate high school.
i go to college. (which means i go out of houston to begin a new life)
i become an adult.
i guess tht aint alot huh?? hahaha, but yeah...i think i might like 2009. i know tht hoe aint gon be perfect but it shall be better. i expect to be more mature...more headstrong...more independent...less gullible...more loving and considerate...i expect to change. but i dnt expect to change in 1 day. change is good but so is patience and time right??
but...im listening to this song called "Tht Was Then" by lalah hathaway. it is THE shit. lol. she says: "it was like a lifetime passed right thru my fingers so long ago.so much tht i didnt know. it was like a light shined dwn and showed me how...how to move on. tht was then and this is now." i love tht.
im moving!!! i really dnt feel like it though. its like you pack all your shit up to unpack it in like 2 or 3 days. ugghh. i hate it. but its for the better.
im out.
byyeeeee. <3
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