guess what?

i love you joseph. lol

bye!

i did it again huh?

ugghh I been busy. lol, but i have had alot on my mind.

but you aint ready for whats been on my mind yet. as soon as i type it you gon be like..whaaaa?! and then i wont knw what to say. its been sitting on my mind tho. kinda bothersome at times but whatev. i can deal.

spent the night at jess and chell's house last night. and i realized tht i needa stop going home ever so often. i needa grow up, and get used to my surroundings. i needa get involved so i wont be so homesick ya knw? im almost an adult, lol. its time istart acting like it i guess.

me and chell went to the NaBJ meeting yesterday. National Black journalists. and you knw i loovee to write. seems exciting so, i guess ill give it a try. btw (i dnt even have my music on today, but i am in the computer lab lol) im finally done with my clases for the day. have i told you about this poetry lounge thing every wednesday? i cant remember if i did, but im finally gonna perform tomorrow. im gonna sing a gift from virgo by beyonce. i love tht song and i love the way i sound when i sing it.

oh and i finally got a skype! lol with no computer aint tht some shit? lol but its ok i be using jessicas computer. i was skyping my bff last night for foreeveerrrr. then i skyped kerry. its really fun. lol

i have a headache. sry to cut off so abruptly but its cold in here an i wanna go to my room. byeeee

<3 rae

..+

im in my realm. lol

sitting in the computer lab listening to my ipod. as of now nicki minaj is on. i love it. i been on facebook for the majority of this time. nothing important though.

man im hungry. im supposed to be going to workout later. and i think i might be going bck to the H today. idk, right now it aint looking like it. but i havent looked at my phone in abt an hour because ive been occupied with this computer. i wore a dress today. but my hair is ruined. i walked to my classes, which by the way i only had two today, in the rain with NO umbrella. =( i have weave in my head. lol, enough said.

tht would be a good reason for me wanting to go home. i dnt feel like paying to get my hair done when monica can do it for free. all i need is a perm. geesh..

i havent tlked to my bff today. we had a falling out a few days ago. maybe about a week ago. it was really major. i just have my thoughts about everything and he begs to differ. whatever..we clearly wont always agree on everything. and sometimes those disagreements lead to those fights, but we make it thru. always.

i finally have some major paper-writing homework. lol due monday. uggghhh. i havent even bought the second book for my history class. what a bum and a failure i am right? thts ok. ima pick it up. i cant let this money go to waste, i aint rich! lol my stomach hurts. i think its gas. or maybe im hungry. i havent eaten anything but a granola bar and drank a capri sun. pitiful breakfast right? i barely got up in time to make it to my first class. me and my friend peter got something to eat last night. stayed up til 2 something. i aint go to sleep til 3 in the a.m. i knw, i knw, my timing is great. but its ok =). ima make it.
OOOOOHHHHHHH!! there's this thing called the poet's lounge. i just love, love, LOVE it. the ppl are soo welcoming. they embrace your talent. its small and homey. all love in there. and i love it. i think im gonna do something next wednesday. it was inspiring, really. and it motivated me to show off my talent just like everyone else. and charleston, do you remember him? monica's ex boyfriend? well anywho, he is the co-host of the thing which makes it easier to wanna introduce myself to the world. lol and kyle invited me. wouldyalookattht? isnt tht a surprise? well not really, cuz we're still really good friends. but still..

i washed clothes at rachelle and jessica's house yesterday. stayed over there for a while. and you knw what else i like to do? i love to do sudoku puzzles. they are so relaxing to me. lol, weird i knw but im different. what can i say. maybe a nerd. lol, but they arent even tht hard. they're fun. i can do like 10 in an hour bck to bck. im so lame. lol

im still istening to this guy chris king. he goes off! there's this particular song tht rachelle introduced me too. its called "silhouette." i just love it. he uses the "say yes" instrumental. the one by floetry? yeahh..he killed it. i love it.

im bout to go get something to eat. and maybe purchase an umbrella. lol and im waiting on twin to get out of the meeting soo, ill write later. promise. :)

byyeeeee.
rae <3

woooaaah

im sooo sry. =( ive been neglecting you. not on purpose though!! i been busy for real. i FINALLY got some homework! lol, and i been doing it. i been studying too.

you wont belive who ive been chit chatting with......the stalkee!!!! lol, it aint no lovey dovey type shit. its just some friendly tlk. its nothing..lol

i needa get this hair done, needa get these eyebrows wxed. hmpf, im not really finna write a book like i usually do. im not in my usual setting to do so. you knw, the music, the computer lab, the solitude. lol

so ima write later. =)

home sweet home.

oh my goodness..im soooo glad to be home.

i dnt think yall understand. houston is where its AT!!! lol, i went to my two morning classes, washed some clothes, then rode with twin back to houston. im at my aunts house now using her new computer. lol

i couldnt wait to get here. i been thinkin about it alll week..i get to see my babydaddyy..lol. my best friend, my mama my sister my dog. lol EVERYBODY..its like i dnt even wanna go back. i wanna stay here and never go bck to huntsville. haha

im not writing much because im too excited to sit in one place. lol, but i shall write later.

byeeeee.
rae <3.

its wednesday...

easy yves saint..im on it hard. i am sooooo late. ive always heard of him but i never just listened to his tuff. wtf what was i thinking? i love tht shit. im listening to him and chris king right now..

i went to workout yesterday. it made me feel like going home. i just dnt feel relaxed in there. its fun, but..idk. when im in the computer lab i feel home. cuz its like i block everybody off. remember when you were younger and you were taking a test and your teacher would make you put a piece of cardboard or something between you and your neighbor so thth yall wouldnt copy? well i feel like i got three pieces to block me off from everybody else in this damn lab. its almost like i dnt even see anyone else..especially when i have my ipod with me..i aint worried abt anyone or anything else..

my classes were sooo long, well they seemed like it. my first class was fine. but my bio class? ugh, its only 50 min. but the way she be tlkng, it seems like the longest minutes of my entire damn day. and on wednesday, i take a lab from 2-350pm. soo boring. and its cold in tht damn room. but whatever, its cool. my 430 math class was cancelled today. yessssssss..i knw everything i needa knw any damn way. right now im listening to chris king's "lyrical exercise." i love it.

i seen some typos already. please forgive me.lol. im going home this weekend. yesss. i cant wait! im so ready to get home! im going to the nail shop tomorrow..then i may be getting my hair done when i get home. idk im just happy to get home. to sleep in MY bed in MY house. i miss my best friends, i miss my mama, i miss my dog, and my sister, and my job, and my papa. i miss houston, shit.

i been doing good huh? writing in you every dayand stuff. i feel good. i need to blog. especially going to college. i need a getaway and this is definitely it. now i havent started on my poem. well i havent started writing it, i started thinking about it in bio today while my teacher was going on and on about nothing. lol, and i knw you can keep a secret.

i love to text my bff. like, if i dnt get a text from him every day and night ill text him and ask why. sometimes i feel like im being a bother. i didnt text him tht much today and i dnt think i will cuz i thnik im getting on his nerves. i just be missing him. him and kerry and my mama. i tlk to them the most throughout my entire day. they like mean everything to me..i just wanna hear from them. =( my mama loves my bff by the way, too. she just cant wait for the day tht we actually get in a relationship, lmao and i keep telling her tht it isnt gonna happen. i just cant imagine tht. lol. and kerry..he's a keeper. i aint lettin him go.

now..i just wanna keep writing. i wish i could sit here all day and blog blog blog blog eat sleep blog blog blog write music read write blog blog blog blog. lol tht would be a lovely schedule for some days..id prolly eat a bit more though. hahaha

but im done i guess. its almost 7:00. tht isnt late at all..but, hmpf. i think i can keep goingg.
so you knw my ex guy kyle? i think he tryna flirt again. and idk about tht. lol but we cool though. really good friends, but we def. aint taking it further. remember what happened last time? i do.

now im listening to wiz khalifa. aaaaghhhh!! wiz khalifa, drake, chris king, yves saint, kanye west, jay-z, tyga..i love em ALLLLLL..

have i worn you out?? my fingers aint even tired yet..this music is settling to my soul. its settling my thoughts too. there arent as many typos in this one as there are in the previous ones right? i didnt have my music on the last two. ima have it more often now though. =)

ima end it here though. and ill probably be back. if not tonight, ima write tomorrow. i got a lil homework. and when i say a "lil", thts exactly what i mean. it aint nothing but a little worksheet for my sam136 class. ima do tht in my room, i guess. and eat some oreos. i gotta pee. lol

im outtt, byee. <3
rae.

week 2

my stomach has been hurting like crazy..ughh. i took some tylenol PM last night. tht shit is NO JOKE! i am still drowsy and tired from last night. how am i gona stay up in class? hmpf..

i had a class at 1230 today..it was ok. i was just really sleepy. time flew by apparently, because its already 300 and i have a class in 30 minutes. shit, shit, shit. i dnt feel like going. but oh well..

did i mention tht my stalkee chatboxed me on facebook? whaaaa..? lol, we didnt really say much. things are different now and for some reason, i dnt really see a future for ever having what we used to have. sucks but, shit happens and you have to deal. im not sad or anything, its just funny how things play out. hmmm..

every night ive been staying up late texting my bff and tlking to kerry. two of the most important males in my life. i had a moment last night because sometimes i feel like im antisocial, in a bad way. i feel like ppl see me as a mean person and a rude person, when tht isnt me at all..im very kind. but then again, i can be very introverted. i tlkd to my bff abt tht last night. and he said tht i was beautifully unique. =) it was so great to read tht. and then it was like, the issue tht i was having was no longer an issue. see, i have a hard time trusting ppl. i dnt let ppl in too easily, and its hard to figure me out. maybe tht could be the reason why ppl perceive me in a way tht is extremely opposite to what i really am. i like my space..and im content when im by myself. i dnt need constant attention. i dnt need to be with a crowd all of the time. me, myself, and i can keep me sane. and i have a select circle of really really close friends. im friendly, but im not everyones FRIEND. (if you get the difference). and i thought it was a bad thing, but it isnt so im fine now.

i sometimes have my days when i just go into deep thought. and i thnk about EVERYTHING. my life, and my relationships, mainly. those things confuse me sometimes. my feelings confuse me sometimes. and why would i dare try to sort them out with anyone else when i cant even understand them on my own? excuse the typos again, i got a mind full of things, lol.

i havent eaten anything all day, except for some cheetos. so when i get out of this 33o class, im going straight to the cafeteria and take FULL advantage of everything thts in there. lol. im so hungry. i hope my teacher lets us out early again. she usually does. i hate political science, well i dnt hate it. it just isnt my fav thing to read and study about. anywho...its cold in this computer lab. i have a bag of doritos in my purse. tht should hold me over. after i leave the cafeteria me and my friend are gonna go to the gym and work out. lol, weird, i knw. im thinking if i am really gonna do some exercise. lol we'll just have to see when i get there.

im done for now..id better start walking to class. UGH!

im outttt. <3
rae.