week 2

my stomach has been hurting like crazy..ughh. i took some tylenol PM last night. tht shit is NO JOKE! i am still drowsy and tired from last night. how am i gona stay up in class? hmpf..

i had a class at 1230 today..it was ok. i was just really sleepy. time flew by apparently, because its already 300 and i have a class in 30 minutes. shit, shit, shit. i dnt feel like going. but oh well..

did i mention tht my stalkee chatboxed me on facebook? whaaaa..? lol, we didnt really say much. things are different now and for some reason, i dnt really see a future for ever having what we used to have. sucks but, shit happens and you have to deal. im not sad or anything, its just funny how things play out. hmmm..

every night ive been staying up late texting my bff and tlking to kerry. two of the most important males in my life. i had a moment last night because sometimes i feel like im antisocial, in a bad way. i feel like ppl see me as a mean person and a rude person, when tht isnt me at all..im very kind. but then again, i can be very introverted. i tlkd to my bff abt tht last night. and he said tht i was beautifully unique. =) it was so great to read tht. and then it was like, the issue tht i was having was no longer an issue. see, i have a hard time trusting ppl. i dnt let ppl in too easily, and its hard to figure me out. maybe tht could be the reason why ppl perceive me in a way tht is extremely opposite to what i really am. i like my space..and im content when im by myself. i dnt need constant attention. i dnt need to be with a crowd all of the time. me, myself, and i can keep me sane. and i have a select circle of really really close friends. im friendly, but im not everyones FRIEND. (if you get the difference). and i thought it was a bad thing, but it isnt so im fine now.

i sometimes have my days when i just go into deep thought. and i thnk about EVERYTHING. my life, and my relationships, mainly. those things confuse me sometimes. my feelings confuse me sometimes. and why would i dare try to sort them out with anyone else when i cant even understand them on my own? excuse the typos again, i got a mind full of things, lol.

i havent eaten anything all day, except for some cheetos. so when i get out of this 33o class, im going straight to the cafeteria and take FULL advantage of everything thts in there. lol. im so hungry. i hope my teacher lets us out early again. she usually does. i hate political science, well i dnt hate it. it just isnt my fav thing to read and study about. anywho...its cold in this computer lab. i have a bag of doritos in my purse. tht should hold me over. after i leave the cafeteria me and my friend are gonna go to the gym and work out. lol, weird, i knw. im thinking if i am really gonna do some exercise. lol we'll just have to see when i get there.

im done for now..id better start walking to class. UGH!

im outttt. <3
rae.