hmmmm.

you are so perfect to me. yet i can identify each and every one of your imperfections. you are still perfect to me.

and i think its because i love you. i see past the things tht other ppl would deem disrespectful. or rude. or inconsiderate. because i know you. and it seems tht what we have is perfect. although it seems wrong in so many ways. i know nothing in this world is perfect. but you are perfect to me. not your ways. not your mannerisms. but you. are the epitome of perfection in my eyes. only because you are genuine and real with me. and tht is greatly appreciated. you tell me the raw truth--ALWAYS. no holding back. even when its nothing tht i wanna hear. you, my love, are perfect. in my eyes...in everyone elses?? they cant understand what i see. but it isnt for them to understand. 

you're perfect. and i love you for tht.

im ouutttt. <3

niggas in the streets hatin me. man they trippin.

when im the only one thts really spittin. dun dun dunnnnn. lol.

lsg was fine. one fight. ended peacefully. they still started shooting though. ugghhh. silly niggas. anywho. i looked good. booyyyyy. i looked good. but i always looked good. i visited SHSU with twin and arianna on saturday. we got there late. lol. so we did a self-tour. which i personally believe was better than any other one. ratchet i knowww. but...

hmm...i nominated myself for prom queen. i got my dress. gotta go look for shoes and shit. 

oohh!! im going into the studio this week or the next. to do my own stuff. thts exciting for me because music is life to me.

oh oh!!!! i got a job! whew!! at the mad potter in meyerland. im soooo excited. now all i need is a car.lol.

ok. im done here. [heeeyyy stalker. im ecstatic tht you started back blogging]

aight. byeeeeee. <3

rainy days.

sooo. its raining outside. doesnt th suck?? well not really...unlike most ppl. i enjoy rainy days. it sets the right atmosphere for me to sleep. or cuddle. or eat. well...anything sets the right atmosphere for me to eat. lol. i like hearing it hit the window. and i like the smell of it especially when its against the hot pavement. its just a calming scent..yeaahhh. so. anywho. my stalkee started back writing on this thing. im glad. i didnt have anything to read. lol. thanks guy. school was kinda blah. especially cuz it was raining. but my government class was ok. we had a substitute so we watched this movie called "runaway jury." it was really good and we didnt even get to finish it. stupid bell. lol. lets tlk about prom!!!!

im getting my dress made. the colors are like a cream or an off-white. and gold & brwn. im excited. ima get my hair done all nice and shiit. lol. then there's so much fun to come after tht. lol. like the day after. im sooooo excited. 

i got my progress report the other day. 100 92 100 80 90 70. tht 70 was in government. ughhh. im trying to boost tht one up. but yeahh...im in honors english. and i could never keep an A in tht class. so seeing tht i have had somewhere around the 90s for the past few progress and report cards,,,thts the only thing im worried about. i needa work a little harder in anatomy though (80). but im graduating for sure...i just dnt wanna take any finals. im already taking my government one cuz its required because its an hcc class. ugh. im just talking and talking about a whole bunch of foolishness. lol. ima stop here. im finna go update my ipod. buh byeeeee.

<3

sooo.

i have NOT been writing in you for a while. and sadly...there is no excuse. i get on facebook, myspace, and i update my ipod. i mean...dnt get me wrong. i come to the website. look to see if i have gotten any comments or something. but i dnt write...and i wouldnt be surprised if you felt a bit betrayed or neglected. i also have another blogging site. rae_alexis.livejournal.com. but ive been doing the same thing to it. although i know tht you are much more important to me...i just felt the need to say it. its just tht...its tiring. spilling out my day's information to you sometimes. and ive been extremely drained lately. soo...idk. im srt. but i will try to do better. i will. for real. lol. just lemme get my life together. aight?? aight. hi stalkeeee!!! (if you happen to read this.) but yeah...im bout to go homeee. 

byeeeee. <3

aaahhhh.

does anybody know where i can get links for casey veggies' musicc??!!!! i wnt it on my ipod and i cant find any of it!!!! its killing meeee!!!!

ugh.

[random picture i know. i just felt like putting on here. lol. on to the juice of my blog...]

i dnt know what to do. im usually the one with all the answers...to everybody elses questions. not to my own. how did i forget tht little detail?? its like...ugh. my mind tells me what i wanna do and my meotions dnt agree. but i find myself unhappy sometimes. and complaining. and i dnt wanna turn into one of those girls who stays involved in something tht doesnt make her happy. being controlled by torture. tht jsut aint meeee. but i dnt wanna leave. maybe i should just leave for a little bit and see the effects of tht. i just dnt think it will work though. ugh. [im not talking about my stalkee for all you nosey ones out there. lol. he'll rarely ever let me dwn] but...ugh. im hurting on the inside...again. and i told myself tht i wouldnt get this feeling with this one. but its here...and i dnt know what to do. but i'll just have to deal. like i always do. i'll just deal.

u-g-h.

lol

man man man. what a night. sooo ive been sick since thursday. i mean...sick! runny nose, fever, stopped up, body aching, sore throat, headache, stomachache. ughhh. everythingg. so i get a bit better today and decide to go to chellies birthday dinner. mannnn. me and lori was gon go together. dinner starts at nine. we dnt get there until the dinner ended. are you kidding mee?? lori had to change, got stopped by the copsss, everythingg!!! so we were extremely late. they was leaving when we were coming. ughhh. sooo we stop by say happy birthday and then we leave. we go to this boyss "hotel shindig" wtf. we wlk in there...all fogged up. (weedsmoke) these niggas looked pitifulllll. whewwww. what a nightttt. im sitting at home. bored and fucking hungry. i might as well just go to sleep. my niggaaa wont come see me. my stalkee is sleep. i aint got nobody to tlk to. ughhhh. what an exciting saturday night eh?? JOKE. lol

whatever. im outt.

byyeeeeee. <3

blah

i am BACK. lol. its been a while yess?? not tht long.

i dnt really have much to say. i ben having a few relationship problems but...those are not to be exposed on here.

(ppl nosey) lol. yall didnt even know tht me and my stalkEE had a BIIGGGGG fall out.

well not really tht big. lmao. but we were not on good terms. BUT we back at it again.

nothin keeps us apart too long. anywhoo...thts kinda it.

lmao. byeeee