another random one.

flawless arent we??? j.lowe,me,ari. i lovee these girls. really. i just wanted to post the picture. another cheer pic. haha.

why do we love love...

when love seems to hate us??

jasmine sullivan asked tht question in one of my favorite songs. she's awesome. but...we love love because it doesnt hate us. and no matter how much we think it hates us we continue to knock on its door in hopes of success. it just doesnt always work in our favor. and thts not love's fault. its because of the decisions and choices we make. and our actions and thoughts. we are the cause of however love works in our lives. and we arent perfect so why would we expect our love lives to be???

now im listening to anita baker. her voice is calming. her lyrics??? fire. the particular song im listening to is called "body&soul." i love it. those who really associate with me on a musical level would love it. better yet they probably already do. anita aint new to the music game. my mama likes her. lol.

we had our last football game saturday. it was kinda sad. all the seniors are leaving. graduating. going to college. kinda depressing. no more cheering. no more monday practices til 6:30. ima miss it. anywho...

let me shout out my stalkee. lol. cuz apparently im his stalker. haha. his blogs interest me. or maybe its just him. both?? lol. yeah. i wish i was out for the whole week of thansgiving. damn..

school just fuckin gettin on my nerves. lol. homework and shit...i wnt some more tattoos. they intrigue me. i wnt my ears pierced again. i wnt a car. damn...i just wnt the whole world huh???

i went bowling yesterday. me.kerry.monica.charleston.j. lowe.sean.ari.koby.ashlo[wifeeyy].mike.denzel.shaunte.dann.desmond.katherine...LOTS OF PPL = LOTS OF FUN. boys against girls. we aint tally up the scores hehe but im pretty sure the girls won. thts just how we rollll.

anyway. last blog i said i would try to write somethin new everyday. lol. BIG joke. cuz this slow ass computer be pissin me off. thts why i leave it up to my stalkee to post new ones everyday so i can read his shit...se how tht works babe???

anyway, i got school. im finna hit the sheets...thts a lie. im finna watch tv. lmao. BYEEEEE.

random

Lamar Homecoming 2008. WEAK!!! lol. but it's our senior year. it was only right tht we attended it...even if it was pretty lame. i'll go in order. j.lowe.me.ari.d'ann.taylor.ashlyn. the girls. we had fun tht night. lots of drama. drunken night haha.

anywho. i was in the hospital yesterday because my cramps were HORRIBLE. i was throwing up and everything. but i guess they are gonna put me on birth control. uggghhhh. so my cramps can stop being so severe. but...i realized how many ppl love me. i had a full room when i was at the hospital. everybody came to see how i was doing. i swear i have the most awesome friends and family ever. yeah. and i didnt go to school today. them doctors drugged me up. haha. with MOTRIN 3. tht shit is strong. put my ass to sleep. sooo...yeah. this is a pretty random blog. no reason behind except to update my blogspot. i been m.i.a. from here. i feel like im neglectin yu. lol. so i'll try to write everyday. TRY.

but...im out.

rae.j.

kindasorta

LSG party?? success.
Homecoming?? not so much. lol.
Hotel Party?? big disaster!

anywho. got another poem.

Kindasorta
by Raveen Johnson

i kinda sorta wanna be the one yu love.
not all them other girls. those superficial girls. those good for nothin girls.
its kinda sorta like yu dnt even see me. kinda invisible. sorta not recognized.
if yu get my drift.
but im not gonna throw myself at yu. thts kinda desperate.
something tht i am not.
sorta like yu do it to make me jealous except yu dnt even know tht its making me jealous.
but then again...maybe yu do know. yur just waiting??
patiently? or is time about up?
i kinda sorta wanna be tht one. yu know tht one.
tht one tht yu call and text every five minutes just to let her know tht she's perfect.
(even though perfect is far from what she is)
tht one whom yu see past their flaws. kinda like yu see past me.
sorta like im invisible.
but...i guess its gotta be this way.
cuz i aint making a move. im kinda scared.
...of yur rejection. thts all i see.
and ill never know becaues i havent spoken to yu yet.
sorta apprehensive. sorta anxious.
hell i dnt know.
but..kindasorta...yur already tht one.
kinda like magic. sorta like love unseen.
but yu will never know...

OBAMA.

heyy. its been so long since i been on here. damn. ive expressed alot of feelings but not on here. so let me get to tellin yall...

okay...clearly. Barack Obama is our president-elect. now there is alot of controversy over this situation from both republicans and democrats. personally, i am proud tht there is a black man in office. but i am not proud of the ignorant ppl who know nothing about obama or why he even ran for president and won in the first place. ppl, black, white, asian, whatever, have their own opinions. but i think its especially embarrasing when a black person cant even discuss why they are strong supporters of obama. it should be an honor to everyone, especially african americans, tht he is now our president. but for yu to be a supporter yu have to know yur president. know yur facts. we look so ignorant when we are asked questions about obama and what he stands for and we cant answer them, other than speaking about his race. come on black ppl. lets get it together. obama isnt in office JUST because he is black. he is in there because he was the better candidate, in my opinion. and it also makes me sick when ppl go around a group of republicans and yell out tht their president is black just to piss them off. thts not what obama stands for. obama is EVERYONES president, even the republicans. and he aint rubbin it in the faces of the ppl who were against him so why are his so-called "supporters" doing so??? yur further separating the political parties and races. by supporting barack we support his morals and his policies. not just his fucking race. i mean, im black. but i dnt go around yelling tht my president is black just to piss ppl off. thts ignorant-something tht obama is not.

next. i was recently involved in a conversation with one of my classmates and he told me tht everyone who voted for obama was black. tht statement was ignorant. little did he know...60 fucking % of republicans who voted for bush last year voted for obama this year. and most of them were white. it disgusts me to see tht racism is still a factor in today's society. even in the younger generation. and when i brought up racism he referred to it as me thinking the black race was being attacked. but he, and other ppl, dont understand the complete severity of racism. there are some white ppl who still look dwn on the blck race. they can be in the same room as us but they still have to "keep us in our places." we cant have too much control because we dnt belong in a place of authority. its stupid. we have to work just as hard as we've been working, if not harder, to prove ourselves to the entire world. for example...my friends and i are in International Baccaelaurate classes. kind of like honors classes. we are the only three black ppl in the class but we are respected. they listen to our arguments and understand our intelligence. but if we were not in those classes they probably wouldnt even look at us. lets be real. obama's presidency goes far beyond HIS race but mine and every other black person. we aren't appreciated. and im not saying tht every white person is like tht. the majority of them arent. but what about the few tht are??? the question lingers in my head. this country will never be united with thoughts of hatred, ignorance, racism, gender, whatever.

but all in all...Barack Obama is president. we expect a change and i believe we will receive it. i support my president and i hope tht soon others in the country will support him too, rather than doubting him.

p.s. hey chadd. lmao.

peace.