aah.

"..those three words mean so much when you say them. i can survive with just you and those words.."

i wrote tht. well i thought of it and then i wrote it. thts usually how it works, right? lol but it is one of the most touching and true things tht i have ever written and ive been posting it everywhere. i wrote it for my best friend. the extent of his love for me is like no other besides my family and my boyfriend, and sometimes not even him. ive had ppl to tell me they love me, but when i can just read the words thru a text and know tht your feelings are true..it warms my heart. it matters not what fashion or form he tells me, it just matters tht he tels me and he means it. its hard to find ppl in the world like tht, but i did. what an awesome bff.

hmpf..so im sitting in the computer lab at school, thinking. about life, love, oreos, homework, money, classes, social life, food, family, houston, my dog, music, writing, poetry. everything. all crowding my mind at once. so excuse me if i have any typos. im just tryna get it all out..its routine for my boyfriend and i tht we fall asleep on the phone every night for the first week of school. well the first week is over and we still do it. thts another keeper. some boys who call themselves "boyfriends" are exactly tht, but thts it. they dnt go above and beyond to be your friend and your confidant, and your guide, and your shoulder. see kerry? he provides when he doesnt have to. he listens and he hears me. for tht i appreciate him. he has brought new aspects to my life as i have done for him. love like no other for him. he has never felt for someone outside of his family as he has felt for me. and im glad i could be tht person.

i miss my mama mayneee. and i eat ALL THE DAMN TIME! like, im bound to gain weight. but thts ok, i can afford a few pounds. but ONLY a few. lol sam has been cool so far. all my classes today were boring as hell. my stomach has been hurting. so when im done with you im gonna wlk back to my room, eat some oreos, tke a tylenol pm and hit the sheets. well, i think i have homework. uggghhh. its not hard though..

its so relieving and alleviating to write. to type. to free my inner thoughts to you. sometimes i cant really tlk and say everything tht needs to be said but when i write? everything kinda just flows.out of my mind and pours onto this blog and it feels good. sometimes ppl cant really understand where im coming from or what im saying, but all you do is take it all in and listen. blogging was the best thing tht ever happened. well one of the best things..

i love it. now if i could just get back up on my poetry and my lyrics. i could create masterpieces. hell, my blogs are masterpieces, lol. and one day i shall publish them. soon.

im getting kinda hungry..ill write tomorrow. wel ill try my hardest.

byyeee <3
rae.

hmpf.

daaaaamn. how long has it been..? a minute.

well, me and kerry are amazing. we make a year next month.

me and joe, my bestest friend are awesome...i'd die for tht one.

i started at shsu already. college life aint really nothing special, if you ask me. lol just fewer authorites. more responsilities. no more 8 hour long school days though. thts a plus. all these walking. and these hills though..? tht aint cuttin it. but ima be in shape and fine when ppl see me. hahaha

i been spending time with jessica and rachelle alot. my mama aint really coping well with my departure, she'll be fine though. i'll give her two more weeks of "mourning." haha

the stalkee, he told me to forget he ever came into my life. smh, and i did just tht. its really messed up how tht relationship played out, but hey? shit happens..and i just get so tired of complaining and dwelling so i left tht as what it was and kept it moving.

it feels so good to blog. to type. to write. it feels so relaxing. but ima head out..i aint forget about ya. im back. =)

byeee <3

rae.