smfh.

see..

you think I don't know what you're doing. everytime I try to give the benefit of the doubt to those who do not deserve it, they further prove to me that they DON'T deserve it. and as much as I wanna fight for this shit, I'm not gon be the fool.

I'm not a fool. and I can sense shady shit before it even becomes shady yet. blinded by love, I'll give YOU that. but you ? you've lost every bit of my respect that you ever had. and you will never get it back.

confirmation.

*smiles*

the simplest thing hurt each and every one of my feelings today.

i was browsing around facebook. going through everyones pictures.. and one of the comments on the pictures hit me where it hurt as soon as i finished that last word.

something i thought i was included in. but maybe i'm being selfish. "favorites"

I figured I was favored just a bit, ya know ? but hey.. I tend to overreact. maybe i'm doing that again.

who knows..

l o v e.

a powerful, powerful thing. i don't like to play around with it either. and to love as hard as i do ? i wouldn't want to play with it. it's strong. it's dangerous. it's sacred. it's hard. but most of all, it's worth it. i'm already living proof that love is worth engaging in. sigh..

this mind of mine.. you'd get lost in it. that's where i got lost. and i'm STILL tryna find myself. crazy, right ?

if i could..

i really need to learn how to let things go.. once i let them go, i'll understand why i held on so long in the first place. or does it even work like that ? sheesh..

here's the deal.. have you ever wanted to let go of something or someone but at the same time, you weren't really ready to let it go ? i'm not sure how much sense that made to y'all, but it makes perfect sense to me..

everytime i attempt to convince myself that i should just let things be, that little voice comes in my ear. and each time, I listen. it's only right.

one day ima let go.. or maybe not. idk, hell. i don't know.

as bad as i feel sometimes.. my holding on just feels so right. even when it's wrong it feels right. and i like to feel 'right.' doesn't everyone ?

i'm out man..