sooooo

it is monday. but im sure you knw tht eh ? lol i am sooooooo ready to go home. this is ridiculous. my late ass ratchet ass class got out right at 5 just like i predicted. and i am still in janky ole huntsville waiting on someone to come scoop me so tht i can be bck where my heart is. thts right. HOUSTON. tht is my home. its where i aspire to be every moment. well not every moment. sometimes i aspire to be in new york or hawaii or somewhere. lol but nonetheless, those places do NOT possess my heart. Houston does. and so does my bff and my mama..lol

i packed aaaallll my stuff. just to sit here and do nothing but wait. here's the plan. im gonna be here until 7 or 8 waiting on my uncle to come get me. then ill go to his house. then i will wait on my mother to come get me which will probably take FOREVEEEERRRRRR. ugh. i mean, i jsut wanna be home. i miss my dog. i miss my mama. i miss my sister. i miss my boyfriend. and i miss joseph of course although i just saw his ass saturday and sunday. but i always be missing him. and not to mention that i cannot WAIT until erian gets home. seriously, id spend my entire life with erian if i had to. which, when i grow up i probably will. lmao. she wants me to pick her ass up from the airport but uhhhhh...thts looking like a no. lol (i still love you tho STREETZ !) anywho..

i dnt even have my music right now, this outside noise is killing my damn ears. usually when i come to this computer lab i tke myself to another place. i put my music in and think totally different thoughts and i dnt even see these ppl. but now ? they are all over the damn place. cant get rid of em without my music. i just wrote a paper and typed it not too long ago. i think im gonna get an A, i mean, im one hell of a writer. im not perfect, but im not bad either. obviously. it would be retarded for someone to love writing and then suck at it right? right..

it smells like a strawberry milkshake in here. it kinda makes me wnt one. mmmmm.

everyone is gone. jvonne darian jessica and rachelle. GONE. just left me here alone. by myself. even my damn roommate is gone. wtf.

things have been a bit stressful, i must say. mommy got laid off. tuition cant be paid for. i may not be able to even come bck to huntsville next semester the way things are looking. and it'd be awesome to stay in houston, but i also wanna go to college. lol sooo yeah, how devastating..

my birthday is in 9 days ! aaaaaahhhhhhh ! lol i am excited. ive always been the baby. and i still am. joseph called me a child today. smh. what an asshole. im grown, well almost. lol but yeah...jess and rachelle are throwing me a party at their apt. its gonna be sooo much fun. i cant wait.

but uhh, im gonna gon 'head and make tht looonnng lonely wlk bck to my dorm room to sit there and wait. and wait. and wait. lol

if i had a computer i would write in you some more but i dnt. -__- =/

i'll write later byyeeeee (excuse any typos lol)

raeeee <3

StreetFAME.

i love anthony jamal scott sooooooo much. lol seriously though..

everyone wnts to be a rapper nowadays. everyone thinks its so easy. but anthony ? he been doing this for a while. and he is AMAZING. he's talented. like, when i listen to his stuff i think, what kind of distorted mind (lol) can think up lyrics like this ? like, he says stuff to make you think. ALL of his mixtapes are ALBUM material. lol when he makes it ima be his biggest fan. for real..he showed his ass on this mixtape. i love tht boy. it makes me wanna cry with how much talent he has..to be so young, ppl this age be worried about things tht are irrelevant and tht arent productive. but im proud of anthony. and then my bff wanna be a singer. lol lawwwdd hammercy..

but uhh...somethings been going on lately, where i've had to reevaluate my friendships. i always say tht everyone else uses the word "friend" too loosely because everyone isnt your friend. but i use "best friend" too loosely. i try to make everyone my best friend when evereyone isnt. thts just how it is..college will show you tht. LOUD AND CLEAR.

anywho..i didnt go to my 10:00 class because i woke up late. i aint really trippin t hough. i got all the notes. hopefully they didnt do anything diff. from the norm. but uh..me and kerry are awesome. i miss him.

my birthday is approximately 21 days away. yaaayyyyy then i'll be 18. FINALLY ! ugh. it tkes too long for me to get on everyone else's level. lol

but yeahh..im gonna go to my 11:00 class now. probably get me something to eat. i'll write in you later.

byyeeeeee
rae<3

yuuuupppp.

sooo, i am infatuated with trey songz. lol i saw his new video "invented sex" goodness gracious.

im starting to believe tht he did invent it. hahahaha but i love him. like, ugghhhh. he is so damn gorgeous. lol

i woke up feeling good. i look good. im just in a pleasant mood. last night i sang "speechless" by beyonce and i must say tht i KILLED it. i went to the avenue L. its a little coffee shop where they had poets lounge at. it was a nice setting. really smooth and peaceful. i had fun. i was sooooooo nervous, but im ALWAYS nervous. btu i did well. ialways pull thru. my friends darian and jvonne were with me so...they were my motivation so to speak..

umm...yeah. lol im having a good day. i love my best friend, but im sure you guys already knew tht. lol

i have nothing else to write. hahaha but i did go to sleep and i woke up listening to nothing but freaky trey songz' music. lol what can i say ? hahaha


byeee
rae <3

NO CEILINGS

is hitting haarrrdddd right now. lol i love this damn mixtape.

soooo, im going to houston friday to see my husband. =) drake, tht is. @ club HUSH. did i tell you tht already ? oh well if i did. lol im sooo excited. wooooooohoooo! lol

uhh, i hate my wednesdays. i have a 10, 11, 2, and 430 class today. ugh ! but whatever its only for one day.

me and my brother had the realest convo last night. well, not the realest. we aint have enough time to make it the realest lol but it was TRUE. we tlkd about alot of things tht most ppl wouldnt really understand. but thts okay. =) lol and my bff told me he loved me, which i mean, is nothing different but..thts my bff. and every time he says it warms my heart. he is my heart hell. lol

anyways..im in a good mood today. lol the day is gorgeous. the weather is nice. i look cute. =) i think its gonna be an awesome day. i think ima spend the night at jessica and rachelles house tonight. i love them. (side note: my stomach hurts. cramps. period lol)

im really hungry. i gotta go and "maximize my time" <----in the words of erian hahaha. i gotta make the most of my hour and a half before my boring ass 2:00 class. ugh


byeeee
rae <3

i just noticed that..

my birthday is in exactly a month ! i am soooo excited ! i can finally be 18. lol man, yall dnt knw how long ive been waiting on my birthday to come. im always the baby in EVERYTHING ! ugh ! im probably the only 17 yr old college freshman at my school ! lol (exaggeration) but yeah, i dnt even knw what i wanna do. i just wanna have fun. LOTS of fun ! i wanna do the MOST for my birthday. seriously like, im so excited. lol ima be able to do sooo much. first off, ima be able to get in the club. lol ive never been..dnt i sound like such a baby ? ugh. lol

anyways..i had soomuch fun this past weekend. i went home of course. i went shopping with kerry. went to the movies and saw tht michael jackson movie with my mommy. tht movie was quite amazing. it was nice to see michael jackson in a different light ya knw ? then saturday i went to my little sisters games, she did good. im so proud of her. she's a cheerleader. she looked so cute ! i was out ther from 830 to 1230. whew ! lol then i went to lamars homecoming. it was so nice to see all of them ! all my babies and ms.blackmon, my favoritesttttt teacher EVER ! lol ilove her! we were doing all the cheers and stuff. it was fun. i had fun. then we went to the galleria. i havent been to the galleria in FOREVER ! lol i had tht good ole pizza, saw tyron, my favorite brother and the love of my freaking life, and ashlyn and d'ann. i missed them. and of course i saw kerry. =) hehe joe went to lamar university so i didnt see him. WOMP ! lol but yeah i had fun.

church was amazing as always. learned alot. like i always do.

so me and twin rode bck to sam with my friend darian and he got a flat tire. and we helped him change it ! lol tyron said thts wifey material. hahahaha i agree..

anywho, i just found out tht i have a paper to do ugh ! and a presentation to do tomorrow, but im not rally too worried about tht. i got tht ! =)

uhh, im going to see drake this friday with kerry @ club HUSH. im sooo excited ! i love drake. hehehe

now i feel like im writing too much lol, i think im excited today. but umm, im going to lunch with jessica and ill write in you later.

byeeee
rae <3