sooooo

it is monday. but im sure you knw tht eh ? lol i am sooooooo ready to go home. this is ridiculous. my late ass ratchet ass class got out right at 5 just like i predicted. and i am still in janky ole huntsville waiting on someone to come scoop me so tht i can be bck where my heart is. thts right. HOUSTON. tht is my home. its where i aspire to be every moment. well not every moment. sometimes i aspire to be in new york or hawaii or somewhere. lol but nonetheless, those places do NOT possess my heart. Houston does. and so does my bff and my mama..lol

i packed aaaallll my stuff. just to sit here and do nothing but wait. here's the plan. im gonna be here until 7 or 8 waiting on my uncle to come get me. then ill go to his house. then i will wait on my mother to come get me which will probably take FOREVEEEERRRRRR. ugh. i mean, i jsut wanna be home. i miss my dog. i miss my mama. i miss my sister. i miss my boyfriend. and i miss joseph of course although i just saw his ass saturday and sunday. but i always be missing him. and not to mention that i cannot WAIT until erian gets home. seriously, id spend my entire life with erian if i had to. which, when i grow up i probably will. lmao. she wants me to pick her ass up from the airport but uhhhhh...thts looking like a no. lol (i still love you tho STREETZ !) anywho..

i dnt even have my music right now, this outside noise is killing my damn ears. usually when i come to this computer lab i tke myself to another place. i put my music in and think totally different thoughts and i dnt even see these ppl. but now ? they are all over the damn place. cant get rid of em without my music. i just wrote a paper and typed it not too long ago. i think im gonna get an A, i mean, im one hell of a writer. im not perfect, but im not bad either. obviously. it would be retarded for someone to love writing and then suck at it right? right..

it smells like a strawberry milkshake in here. it kinda makes me wnt one. mmmmm.

everyone is gone. jvonne darian jessica and rachelle. GONE. just left me here alone. by myself. even my damn roommate is gone. wtf.

things have been a bit stressful, i must say. mommy got laid off. tuition cant be paid for. i may not be able to even come bck to huntsville next semester the way things are looking. and it'd be awesome to stay in houston, but i also wanna go to college. lol sooo yeah, how devastating..

my birthday is in 9 days ! aaaaaahhhhhhh ! lol i am excited. ive always been the baby. and i still am. joseph called me a child today. smh. what an asshole. im grown, well almost. lol but yeah...jess and rachelle are throwing me a party at their apt. its gonna be sooo much fun. i cant wait.

but uhh, im gonna gon 'head and make tht looonnng lonely wlk bck to my dorm room to sit there and wait. and wait. and wait. lol

if i had a computer i would write in you some more but i dnt. -__- =/

i'll write later byyeeeee (excuse any typos lol)

raeeee <3