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i am in the worst mood ever.

thts it.

sooo

i failed my damn bio test with a 66. UGH

i thought i really would do well. or at least get a damn c ! ugh.

on a lighter note, if you havent read my brothers blog (a mind untamed) you should. it is amazing. esp since he wrote about me in one of em. =)

umm..its really cold. but its sooo pretty. i been writing tht on twitter and facebook. now YOU ! lol

i went to a bonfire yesterday. i felt soo involved. like ireally had school spirit. it was nice. we ate and everything. it was cool..

i spent the night with rachelle and jessica last night. stayed up til damn near 5 i nthe a.m. doing absolutely nothing. lol a damn shame. i missed my 1230 class yesterday. i was sooo tired i slept til 1 in the afternood. smh.

dnt judge me please. lol umm....lets see..

i dnt really have much else to say today blogspot. im just in such a cheery mood. its cold but the sun is shining. its great. i ate and just feel good. everytime i walk around i just wanna smile at everyone i see. thts how good my day is going. =) i love this feeling.

im listening to my ipod. finally im getting bck into my normal routine when i write in you. lol
im not going to houston this weekend. =( but whatever. it should be nice for me to sty up here for a few weekends. lol im going bck to houston next weekend tho. i get to go to lamars homecoming. how exciting !!! i miss them ! i miss cheering and everything. high school was the best.

umm...i think my meal plan is bck on as of today. i havent tried it yet. but i will..sooner or later. im staying this weekend with jessica. everybodys going to sfa for their homecoming. womp. im probably NOT. lol i asked kerry to come up here but he said NO. =( he is sooo rude to me. but whatever, i'll show his ass.

but uhh..im getting on facebook now. i'll write later.

byeeeee
rae<3

hmpf..

i havent written in you lately.

and im sooo sry. alots been going on.

i have yet to tell you about my first homecoming experience in college. i didnt go to the game or the step show. but i went to aaallll the parties. lol got DRUNK. i mean..WASTED. we were done tht night. but i would do it all over again (wink) lol

i dnt have any regrets or anything..just have memories and i had FUN. lol

anywho..this college life has been great. i needa work on my study skills thts for damn sure. i needa start going to bed earlier. i dnt get enough sleep but its only me to blame. i stay up late listening to my ipod and playing my sudoku puzzles. as hard as it may seem to believe those puzzles are addicting really..they challenge your mind. and i guess my mind loves a challenge. lol

umm..erian came home last weekend. (i love you !) we had an amazing time. me and her got so close this summer sooo i was happy when she came bck. she goes to school in virginia so she doesnt come home much. but thas my bitch though. lol we saw paranormal activity which WAS NOT what everybody said it would be. it wasnt the scary honestly. it was quite boring when it first began. smh, whatever..

me and my bff had a little issue amongst one another at one point. i just thought i was gonna lose my best friend. friends like tht are very hard to find. he knws me more than i knw my damn self. and he understands some of my actions when others just take them as rude or disrespectful or stuck up or whatever the society claims them to be. he sees them in a diferent perspective. i love him for tht. we're like "super friends" lol (as he said) its not too many ppl in this world tht will ever understand you fully. sadly but truthfully there arent more than at least 4 ppl who can really understand who you really are. well, its really not tht sad. some friends are just closer than others and thts ok. ive accepted tht fully. i love joe. we're good now. got yall jealous eh ? lol

umm, i love tyron. thts my brother. point blnk, he's like the fckng love of my life. ive never had anyone love me the way he does besides joe and my mama and jesus. lol he loves me more than i love myself sometimes. and thts hard to find. and what tops it off is tht he's a MAN. i appreciate the male figures in my life because my father was never around. when he and joe and a few others came along and love me like tht, it makes me wanna live so tht i can love them bck in the same amount if not more. i love him. blood couldnt make us any closer.

kerry is doing awesome. i miss him when im up here and he's dwn there. last weekend i just held his hand and stareda t him as he took me home. realizing tht boyfriends like tht are hard to find as well. im keeping him. lol i love tht man too. he like, does things for me even when i annoy him or piss him off. he takes on roles in my life tht he really doesnt have to but he chooses to because he loves me tht much. i'm just a blessed little something arent i ? lol to have ppl in my life like this..why would i ever complain ? ---->becuz im human. lol

anywho..ive been doing good up here. OH ! my meal plan is like inactive right now. =/ its hard because i have to pay for everything i eat. and i mean, i just dnt have money coming from every which way. mommy got laid off about a month ago..thts kind of hard on her. andi dnt wnt her thinking she has to give me money every day. she still has to tke care of my little sister ya knw ?

but im making it. i havent starved yet. lol an you believe im in this computer lab with NO music ? smh my damn ipod is in my room. but my right headphone blew out. =( tht sucks right ?!

oh my new musical crushes, J.COLE!!! and Myles..and Dinoo Supremmoooo (even tho rachelle stole him from me) hahaha but they good though. i mainly wanna focus on J.COLEE. he's simply amazing with his words. i cant wait til REAL talent hits these radios and bumrushes all this trash out the damn way. i been looking for real music for a long time.

anyway..im hungry. nothing new right ?

OH, me and chad are bck on good terms, for the most part. which i didnt expect considering the words he spoke to me. lol but its cool whatever. things happen. we good now.

i gotta headache im ungry, and i think i just passed my biology exam. i hope so.

im outttt bye
rae <3