church.

this pic is of me and my cheer girls. we were chillin before practice. haha. boredom. thts d'ann and twin. i love em. they are a few of the girls tht complete my life.[pointblank] mhm. anywho. im bakkk. im listening to lauryn hill right now. its soothing my mind. i feel good right now. i feel secure in my friendships and in my relationships. im ready for school to start. i learned at church tht sometimes a storm is really grace tht keeps yu out of hell. meaning the storm was a reality check. saving yu from certain mistakes yu made tht can send yu to the wrong places. we need storms. avoid them as much as possible but dnt expect them not to happen. they make yu stronger and better. always. yeah. church was awesome this morning. anywho. i just thought i would share tht with yall.

poetry.

sooo...ive been dying of deprivation of blogging all day. ohemgeee. now tht im here i done forgot what i wanted to blog abt...hmm...ohhh!!! i was gonna give yall one of my poetry pieces...so here it goess:

Givin' Up

i gotta give up.
too much stress. confess all things tht ive done then i gotta give up.
cuz im stuck in love waiting on him to love me back.
feelings aint the same so i gotta give up.
im tryin to give up.
used to be on top of my game now ive managed to slip up.
man i gotta give up.
cuz im filled with hope. but in the back of my mind i know i must cope
with his absence so...i'll try to give up. but its hard cuz i let my mind sway
to the things tht he says when i know tht he doesn't really mean what he says
so...how i am supposed to give up trying. ppl say i wlk around like i just got thru crying.
and im so depressed && life aint supposed to be like this.
cuz my expressions express tht there is something ive missed.
man i gotta give up.
its a must i give up.
cuz he's moved on to new things while i wait for a phone ring.
im abt to give up.
cuz there's so much more ahead of me. and to wait on this boy who wnts nothing to do with me
is so beneath me. so yea...im givin up.
cuz its weakening my spirit when it used to be tough.
&&givin up is the only solution to my problem. all this giving in and loving him surely aint gon solve em so...
im gon try to give up but its tough cuz i know i'll slip up.
he'll whisper something in my ear and i'll surrender to what i hear.
forgetting tht when he stops whispering my emotions will still be laid out like a blanket.
sorry to the world if i fail to give up.
but im tryin. im tryin so hard to give up.

yea...thts my shit. more to come. cuz i like sharing this with yall. haa;

im out.

Lauryn Hill

lol. sry. i had to post this before i forgot to. this girl right here??? THE shit. her music is what i wnt mine to resemble. making a difference. enhancing minds to think beyond the norm. AWESOME. "every cause has an effect." (lauryn hill) i absolutely love her. &&yu should too. cuz her music is like no other. rapper singer actor. she's a goddess.

randomness.

i am a cheerleader. &&i must say tht i adore it. its very challenging. more than walking around it cute little skirts with lots of make up on. haa;i take it very seriously. its awesome. took a huge chunk of coins out my pocket butt...yu gotta do what yu gotta do. lots of help frm the ppl who love me. anywho. im so boredd. &&this has def. become my new chill spot. my domain. my haven. i absolutely love it here. yall aint too welcoming though. just kidding. its amazing how addicting something gets. like tattoos and alcohol. hehe. blogspot has become one of my addictions. &&i would tell everyone else abt it but the nthey might abuse it like they have murdered myspace. ugghh it disgusts me. lol. butt...if they find out they find out. but it wont be because i told them. sooo...hmm...i guess thts gonna be it. cuz i clearly ran out of meaningful shit to say. everything after this next period is gonna be so random and pointless its ridicuous. watchin project runway. thts my shit. listenin to drake. he's my shit. writing some poetry. thts THE shit. thts what i can tlk abt. my poetry. i thnk its bomb if i do say so myself. i might post one up here. long as yall dnt steal it. i would hate tht. i write with emotion literally. whatever i feel pours out of my mind into the pen and onto the paper. and its flowy and soothing like cool water. its awesome. thts how my songs are too. did i mention i write my own lyrics?? damn. i be forgettin stuff. definitely not bragging. just boredom. i figured id tell yu a bit more abt myself since i aint got shit else to do. but ill finish up now. wtyl.[write to yu later] haaa;

drake.[the best]

ugghhhh. this is the product of boredom. &&i figured since everybody else would express their love for DRAKE i would too. he is the best yet. and he aint signed surprisingly. his words put me in my mood. if i aspired to be a rapper i woud wanna be him. haa; umm...and im a singer soo i guess ill be the female version. long story short i like drake. no no. i love drake. he's my rainy day hate yo nigga love yo nigga im the flyest never biting in my zone type shit music. haha. type of music tht lets yu know he's real. never bullshittin. always true in every line. &&i will never fail to support him. never.

CHAD

mannn. haa;i never in million years imagined myself dedicating a whole blog to yu butt...here it is. i just figured yu deserved it cuzz...shit idk. i just felt like it. lmao. ily chad. regardless. yes. yu are an asshole. pointblank. and yess. it does piss me off. haa; but it never changes the way i feel. may change our status[waiitt...what WAS our status??]lmao. anywho. things may not be the same between us but this doesnt erase the fact tht yur cool. lol. i keep laughing in the middle of this. seriously though. ily forever. the times tht we did have arguments they werent actually arguments because yu didnt argue. lmao. yu just pissed me off to the point where i was the only one yelling and didnt give a fcuk. &&in the end everything would be ok. cuz yu never took things seriously[which is not always good] but anyway. yu my nigga. haha. no matter how much yu dnt claim me. lol. no matter how much yu dnt like me. no matter how much yu dnt love me. and no matter how much yu think im the lamest person in the world[which we all know im not]. yu still my nigga. and yu came in my life for a good reason and i kept yu here for a good reason. sometimes i wish yu were in my life a totally different way than now but only time will tell if thts meant to be. until then...be my nigga for ever. cuz i cherish yu believe it or not. the more yu piss me off...the more i appreciate yur presence in my world. i love yu in different ways. but those multiple ways are only for us to know abt nahh mean?? yeah. anyway. isnt it crazy how i did this shit for yu?? hmm? cuz over the past weeks i been hat...well disliking yu strongly. but now i know its because i still care. and i will never deny tht. sooo...with tht being said. fcuk off. hehe. ily. bye.

sooo fucking awesome.

recommended by a friend. lol. now ima be on this shit all the time. i love it. an entire website abt blogging?? freedom to write abt ANYTHING?? im in freakin heaven. myspace and facebook give yu notes and shit. but this is devoted only to blogging. this is awesome. haa; thanks "guy friend" for telling me to check yurs out. now im officially addicted. wish i wouls have know abt this sooner but im here now. gon be here for a while. &&for some reason i dnt wnt anyone else to know abt it. [but i guess thts wht other ppl say abt me lmao] anywho. this is great. ima be on this hoe every chance i get. thanks CHAD INGRAM. ily. be back. trust me. haha...im out.