it's beginning to look a lot like christmaaasss ;)

JOKE. lol it doesnt feel like christmas at all honestly. ive been going through soooooo much.

me and kerry have REALLY been through it these past couple of days. seriously.. like, ugh. its been stressing me out. but we'll see. im bout to go to the movies tonight with him. i love him nonetheless.. and he's what i want. it's what my heart says i want and im gonna listen (sigh) anywho..

i got him a christmas/slash birthday present. tomorrows his birthday. yeeeee.. i cant tell you what it is though, even though he neveerrr reads you. haha

i got my mama, my sister, donald, and kerry something. thats all i needed. i aint had alot of money. like, my family has really been struggling financially. and i mean, i knw we're better off than most. we were still fortunate enough to get christmas presents. we still eat every day and night. we still have clothes, we still have a house. still got cars and phones. so we're blessed honestly.

but its just been a hassle ya knw ? but we're making it. im still as grateful as i can ever be and thts all i need anyway.

but it really does NOT feel like christmas. this year my holiday spirit is like.. almost nonexistent. lol but i shouldnt be tht way.. whatever. im ready for new years really.. im ready like.. i just KNOW things will be better. 2009 was extremely and outrageously eventful, but i knw 2010 is gonna be fantastic. it has to be. i have faith. and faith is a strong thing, i must say..

but uhh.. yah. i have yet to go to the club. cuz you knw im 18 now.. lmao. i can go to the club now without sneaking or anything haha.. but i have yet to go. i got some new pumps today. 25 dollassss.. aint tht a deal ? some baadddd purple pumps.. im going somewhere hell.. lol

but today is my aunts birthday. we're over here eating and celebrating and stuff..

but im logging off now. i'll write later.

byeeeee <3