always.

I've just always been there. I've alwys held you down. I've always made a way for you before making a way for myself. Crazy, right ? Love'll make you do some crazy things, I'm living proof of that. We have this rollercoaster relationship. It's like I always have to wonder where we stand or how you feel. I'm too scared to ask, though. I'm afraid that the answer I receive may not be what I wanna hear. That's when i begin to try to read you. I try to make out some of the things you say and do to somehow depict what you're thinking. I sit and contemplate the things we've been through and the things I've done recently. That's when I begin to question myself. Even with everything that I've ever done for you in this life, I still manage to believe that I can do one thing that can make you drop me just like that. Even with the money I've given you, even with all the tears I've shed for you, even with all of the times I've saved you or given you whatever you needed. I can still manage to do that ONE thing that makes you forget all of the good I've done, and forget me forever.
I never understood how you could do that. I never understand alot of the thongs you do anymore, but I keep trying. I keep fighting for you. I keep trying for you. I stay down. I stay by your side. Because no matter how much you push and shove me away, you need me. I need you. And I know we didn't get this far to drop it down the drain. So I keep trying. For you. I'd literally give everything fr you. But you already knew that.

Rae <3