1.24.10

this life is so amazing.
twists, turns. ups, downs. lefts, rights.
a million things to do with a trillion ways to do them.
and yet we sit and do nothing.

but we are only human and humans do make mistakes.
as fragile as we are, there's so much that we can take.
and as strong as we are, there's so much that we give.
and the things we take from giving sometimes make it hard to live.
and sometimes when we reach, there isn't anything to take.
and sometimes we wish that we'd never put our hearts at stake.
but things happen for a reason, and we can't take them back.
like a train going forward, you can't backtrack on the tracks.
so i can't backtrack on the hurt that i put in your heart.
and i can't tell you that i knew that you would feel this from the start,
this pain, this betrayal, this stab to your soul.
when i knew that i was one of the people that made you whole.
and i knew that what I do had an affect on YOUR life.
but i wasn't in my right mind, and i did not think twice.
but i am only human and i do make mistakes.
from all your disappointment, i wish you could take a break.
but i don't have the power to take the burden off your hands,
and into another man's so that he could understand.
but i wouldn't want to inflict that pain on anybody else,
because when i hurt you, i also hurt myself.
so i'm sorry, but i WON'T be repetitive for long.
the rest is in your hands, and if you choose to hold on,
i'll always have my hand reaching out in your face,
but this is YOUR race,
take it at your own pace..

rae <3