forever.

hmm. where do i begin...

ugh. all these feelings cant be controlled. i always asked myself why i stayed attracted to yu. cuz we were never nrmal. lol. seriously. we never did the things we planned. we never acted on our emotions. it was all just a joke but not really. we just treated it like one. and our best friend (lol) said tht i was in love with yu. and i aint wanna agree. cuz yu aint really the type to be tryna fall in love with. no offense haha. but. ASSHOLE doesnt really give off the image of deep love. but i miss what we had. whatever it was. i miss it. cuz thru all the disagreements came alot of good conversations. and i managed to spit out "i love yu" a couple of times. and i actually meant it. and i seem to catch myself reading yur stuff everyday. and looking at yur pictures all the time. not a day goes by tht im not curious about what could have been. now dnt think im a stalker or some shit. haha. i can just honestly tht yu were one of a kind to me. ugghhh. i miss yu. and in the time tht i was talking to yu i knew i could have found better but i didnt wnt to. because better still wouldnt have been yu. better wouldnt make me laugh or cry or yell or scream or sing the way tht yu did. remember when i would sing to yu??? i wish i could still do tht but it would only make me love yu more and fall back into what we had. but it wouldnt be the same. cuz what we had isnt there. it isnt we anymore. it sucks. and now im sad. lol. i knew what i was getting myself into. i knew what kind of person yu are and i thought it was cute. and i still do. and i feel like im the one who matched yu most. but shiittt...idk who's in yur life now. replaced me. i wouldnt do anything differently between us except the ending. and to this day i still wouldnt be able to leave yu alone. cuz yu left a mark on me. a deep dark mark tht will never go away. sometimes. i wish we could be. and i remember yu telling me tht yu sucked at relationships. but i dnt care. cuz yu never sucked at what we had. even when yu pissed the fuck out of me. lmao. but. those are just things i think about. and who knows what the future holds. i admit tht im with someone. and i really like him. but...if the wind blew yu back to me i would take yu with open arms. and thts truth.

love yu. forever.